My Blessed Journey With Breast Cancer

Happy New Year and Goodbye!

2009-01-02T06:42:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year Dear Family and Friends,

I think it's time to sign off this blog with good news! I had a lung test Monday and the one enlarged lymph node they could reach.....tested ok. Thank you Lord!! They want me to repeat the PET/CT scan again in a year. The chronic pain remains since the first surgery....but thankfully the 10's unit makes it manageable and I don't have to live on drugs. I just can't stop praising God!!!

I started a file a couple of years ago that I titled "My Last Blog". I'd think of something.....or find something I wanted to share with you and put it in the file to use today! The file is now big enough for a book! ( I'll try to make this shorter). But a big surprise has happened to me as I leaf through the notes.....it's a precious file of God's encouragement! It will be a gift I'll treasure the rest of my life.

I'm excited to look ahead to the New Year that God has given each of us today. Blank pages to be filled with hopes and dreams....and no doubt.... disappointments and sadness. I've learned that through the years, there is a mixture of all each year. The thrilling part I have learned to watch for in each day is to see how God is working this day for my good.

For about five years, I've whispered a prayer each morning before I get out of bed..."Lord I don't know what you have in store for me today....but use me for your glory!" It seems to help me focus and see where and how He is working! Many days I whisper "Only God" as events unfold. Not only the good...but the bad events also....because in time I know I'll begin to see and understand the whys. Do I understand all "Whys"? NO. I think some of our "whys" we will only understand when we see God.

One of the main reasons I wanted to write this blog, I'll have to admit, was for my own family....especially my grandchildren. That someday..... they would be able to read these pages and see God's faithfulness to me. This desire for the blog comes from scripture in Psalm 78:4-7. It says: "We will tell the next generation the praiseworthy deeds of the Lord, His power, and the wonders He has done.....then they would put their trust in God and would not forget His deeds but would keep His commands."

The other reason.... is my prayer that my journey could help others who are walking through the valleys of life....that they might be drawn to Jesus....and know and have peace that He is there for them. We are never alone!

You and I dear ones.... are God's plan for making God's love believable. This calling will look different for each of us. We simply need to find out where God wants us to show a bit of bravery for this season of life and the share it with others. I know you can do this also! There is so much work to be done and so many lives need our help.

Please know your prayers, love, gifts and act of all kind of kindness ....are precious treasures in our memories. I only pray I have many years to return these gifts to others... and to see those opportunities that He places in front of me each day.

Hug your family close each day..... and make each day count! We never know the days God has planed for us! This journey actually did fulfill my deepest desire to know Christ better! My prayer for each of you would be....that you walk each day in His love and grace.

Joyfully His,
Donna

P. S. A new favorite Scripture: Psalm 91:9-16. I encourage you to find your bible and see why I've found it so special.....God Bless!

GOOD NEWS.....and a tiny concern!!

2008-10-26T13:53:00.000-07:00

Hello Dear Friends and Family,

I'm sorry for the long time between updates.....I'm in touch with most everyone through my personal emails....but know there are some that check my blog on occasion. I really had planned to try to express my "thanks" and sign off my blog with my good news.....but.....

First the GOOD NEWS!! In Aug. this year my twin sister, Linda, called and said her husband's niece asked if they had tried a "tens unit" for the pain? Long story short.....we tried it and PTL it has helped A LOT!!! I have not had any "hard drugs" since the day I first used it! Sooooo incredible how much better I can function and feel!! In case you don't know about a "tens".... it is a small battery pack you hook on your waistband. It has 4 electrodes that stick on my back. It sends an electric current to the 4 patches. You can adjust the current up... or down... depending on the pain level. A guest at the resort this summer, who is a "pain" Doc....says the simple explanation.....the pain travels to my spinal column and the tens unit shuts the door before it reaches my brain and says "ouch"!! I don't care how it works....just thankful!! I know that not everyone finds relief from chronic pain with them....but give it a try if you face each day filled with pain!!!

Now for the tiny concern and why I didn't close the story yet! July 2007 I had a PET CT scan trying to find a reason for the new intense pain in my back. PTL the test showed no new cancer.... or reason for the pain.....but found a couple of lymph glands in my lungs that were enlarged. They suggested another check in 6 months to see if there was any change. Someone had suggested that almost ALL folks who live in the Midwest have histopalmosa (sp). I hated putting the radio active "stuff" in my body and didn't repeat the test. In May when I saw my oncologist he asked, "Where is the new PET CT report?" He wasn't happy I hadn't repeated the test and I told him I'd think about it! He suggested doing ONE more and if there wasn't any change....forget about it!! Well I thought about it and didn't want to do it.......but a little nagging thought wouldn't go away.....so the end of Sept. ....when the new report came back the lymph glands had doubled along with various other ones had increased in size. Oooops!

The good news Oct. 8th.... when I saw the oncologist again.....the blood markers had not changed. He assured me that what every was happening.... it was NOT related to the breast cancer. He wanted to set my up with a "lung Dr." in Denver....but I couldn't get in until end of Nov.!! We closed the resort last Sunday (Oct. 19th) and we are now in Il.

I do have an appointment with a pulmonary doc Dec. 15th in Texas when we get down there! The oncologist in Denver of course isn't sure....but says it might be sarcoidosis...which isn't cancer and doesn't seem to serious...or maybe lymphoma. I'm voting for the sarcoidosis....I think!!

I'll be back online a few days after my appointment in Tx. I do have peace about this....especially when the blood report came back. Thanks for your love and support through these days....there truly aren't enough "special words" to describe the feelings we have felt on this journey because of you.... and God's hand on our lives!

I don't know what tomorrow holds....none of us do.....but I pray you know..... along with me.... that we DO know who holds it!!!

Loving Him and EACH of YOU,
Donna

2 YEARS AGO TODAY

2008-05-18T17:45:00.001-07:00

Hello Family and Friends,

Could it be 2 years ago this day.... that I hear the word cancer spoken by my Doctor? The start of a new journey began that day, and I count is a blessing to be here to continue the story!

A special friend contacted me last week, because she had been watching my blog and not finding anything for so long. I'm truly story for any concern I have caused you... my faithful readers.... that I haven't posted for so long.....I have been waiting to be able to tell you good news. Thankfully I am better than I was when I last wrote. We have left Tx. since I last wrote.....spent the month of April in our home in Illinois....and now 2 week have passed here in Co. I am thankful I did the reconstruction....and very pleased with the results that Dr. Haws (Mindy) was able to create.....even though it seemed like it was starting over with the pain level...but know time will help.

While I was in Illinois, I found a Dr. that gave me 7 treatments of acupuncture. I was really impressed that it helped for about 24 hrs after a treatment....was disappointed I couldn't continue longer with him before heading to Co. He told me some good news....He said,"because I would get SOME relief....it wasn't permanent nerve damage. TYL (Thank You Lord). That was an interesting experience. I'd recommend anyone give it a try for just about any chronic pain! Our bodies are such wonderful creations....only God !!!

I have an appointment this Thursday with my PT (Julia) that I found last year in Denver. Julia was a BIG help last year....look forward to a weekly appointment this summer to see if I can get rid of more of the pain. Still sleeping in a chair about a third of the time and need percocet most of the days....know the increased pain now... is from long hours and extra activity getting our resort open for the season.

But....as I share the above....I'm so very mindful how blessed I am! Would I have wanted to missed this journey??? No!!. It may sound crazy to read that answer....but I have learned so much about the faithfulness of God.....the love of my family and friends...and that there is a purpose for my journey.

Your prayers for me an my family are treasures that we can't measure! Two years later.. we realize even more... the blessings that God has poured out on us through this journey. We pray that you also, see His hand on your life and experience His abiding love for YOU...... we are His precious children whom He loves!!

Loving Him and each of you,
Donna
John 1:16

One Day at a Time!

2008-02-10T12:36:00.000-08:00

Hi Everyone,

Just a note to let you know I'm improving. Tuesday (12th) will be 3 weeks since surgery.

The colors of black and blue are now faded to some yellow. Left side is doing good. Right side is running about 2 weeks behind because of the extensive work that was done. Yesterday was the first day I could tell a little less swelling. Started an antibiotic 2 days ago to make sure the redness that remains in the right side isn't an infection. Didn't think I needed an antibiotic YET until the Dr. (Mindy) said,"We want to make sure we don't loose the implant"... I said....OK....almost fainted at the thought of that!

I'm back in the struggle of trying to take less BIG drugs for pain. Knowing how much to cut back and not getting way behind the pain is often hard to figure out. It is an on going problem. That would be my prayer request...discerning how much my body needs and the amount to take each day as I continue on this journey.

I find it so comforting how God's timing is perfect. I'm doing a bible study each Monday with some gals here in Sun City. It is a Beth Moore study on the book of Daniel. THIS WEEK we were reading about Shadrack, Meshack and Abednego that were thrown in the firey furnance. When king Nebuchadnezzar looked in, there were 4 people walking in the flames......God always abides with us through the trials of life. SOMETIME GOD DELIVERS US FROM THE FIRE. OTHER TIMES HE DELIVERS US THROUGH THE FIRE. STILL OTHER TIMES HE DELIVERS US BY THE FIRE INTO HIS ARMS! Beth says," Our God is able to deliver us, Beloved. Every time! And often He does!
If ever He does not and the flames of death or tragedy consume us, it is to light a fire somewhere and in some heart that can never be extinguished. Trust Him to the death. Trust Him through the death. In the blink of an eye, we'll understand"!!!

No...I'm thankful I don't feel the flames of death ....but what peace to know that He is there for all of us, who confess Him as Lord and Saviour....when that time comes!! In this journey, God's mercies and blessings are over whelming to me!

Your prayers and concern continue to touch our hearts. Almost daily... in cards, emails and calls. I pray the Lord lets me live a long, long time so I can try to repay others with the same kind of love you have shown us!

Joyfully His,
Donna
P.S. "spell check" won't work....no time to proof....but hope you can hear what my heart is trying to say!! Love Ya! D

IT'S OVER....and I'm soooo sorry I couln't tell you!

2008-01-29T05:59:00.001-08:00

Good Morning dear family and friends,

I had promised so many of you that Michele or Teresa would post to this blog on Jan. 22. when my Reconstruction revision was finished! WELL.....MY USER NAME AND PASSWORD WERE CHANGED A FEW MONTHS AGO. IT WAS WRITTEN ON MY DESK PAD ....IN TEXAS.... and I couldn't remember it for any thing! We tried every combination we could think of to no avail!! I was plagued with worry that I couldn't tell you I was OK!!!!

We returned to Tx. Sunday night and was so glad to be in my own bed after being gone 3 weeks...(a side trip to Fl. with my twin sister and hubby in Daytona Beach before surgery).

Mindy (Dr. Haws) did an awesome job with the revision. The big glob under each arm is gone and they look much more normal. I'm swimming in huge pain again....but feel when time and swelling goes down....I'll be much better and more comfortable!!

"Thanks" never seems enough words when it comes to telling you how much my family and me appreciate and love each of you! You are one of God's greatest blessings to us.

On May 18, 2006, I never would have thought this blog would last so long......and perhaps it is not close to stopping....only God knows the plans for me....but I can say I'm overwhelmed with His grace and mercies on this journey. No matter how long the journey, I have such awesome peace knowing that, what ever lies ahead, He's walking with me and your love and prayers are supporting us! They are priceless to us. Please include Lloyd in your prayers....he is such an awesome life partner who cares for me with special details each day. (Flowers yesterday :}).

I'm praying for each of you in this New Year, that God will be pouring His blessings on you and your precious family. I pray as you climb into bed each night, that God will bring to mind the "little everyday blessings" He sent you that day. .....and you can say...."To God Be The Glory"!!

Loving Him and each of you,
Donna

A Year Ends and New Year Begins with Surgery.

2007-12-29T12:19:00.000-08:00

Hi Family and Friends,

Can 2007 be almost gone? It is a time to reflect on the past months and look forward with anticipation for what God has in store for us this New Year. The real blessing I focused on this year ....... I'm free from breast cancer. I pray for the day that a cure will be found for this horrible disease....and no one will die from it!!! I know so many who are really ill right now and my heartaches for them and their family.

After much thought, I have scheduled surgery in Nashville, Tn. Jan. 22nd for a revision. It was a year ago yesterday that I had my last surgery....in a HUGE BLIZZARD IN COLORADO!! Hope we don't find any blizzards on the way to Tn.!! We have a condo rented on the 19th for a week there....so should have a few days to make it in time if it should snow!!

Michele, our daughter, surprised us with the news yesterday that she will fly from Co. to be with us for 3 days....such a blessing. I know her girls and hubby will miss her....but we sure will enjoy having her with us!!

We know that you will be whispering our name in God's ear on the 22nd....and thank you so much for taking time to lift us up to Him. Pray also for Dr. Haws as she does the work and that it will help relieve the pain. I know you all have been a circle of prayers around us!! Will update the blog after the surgery or in a few days.

Please hit reply or email my personal email, and let us know your prayer requests also....it's a real priviledge to be included in your heart needs.

We will be praying God's blessings are pouring out on you and yours this coming New Year. Also, that He will give you eyes to see, even the smallest blessing that He's sending your way!!
Claiming Psalms 121:7 for you....The Lord will keep you from all harm---He will watch over your life; the Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.

Joyfully His,
Donna

More Surgery----Maybe??

2007-11-04T14:23:00.000-08:00

Hi Everyone,

Aug. 30.....such a long time since I posted....so much has happened.....where do I begin?

The trips down to Denver each week were truly a blessing. The relief was great when I left the office....but it didn't last but a day or so. However....as the time progressed I realized it was helping more than I realized. I'd go to do some thing....and think...."that didn't hurt as much as it use to". It was such gradual change I had not noticed. It's been almost a month now since my last therapy and I'm really sliding backwards into more pain. When we get to Tx. my therapist in Co. has found one in Austin that does what she does....can't wait to get there!!

I saw 2 of my doctors Oct. 9th...a few days before we closed the resort. Dr. Sedlacek (oncologist) wants me to repeat the PET/CT scan in Jan. (6 months) to be sure there isn't anything going on in my lungs. So will do that in Tx. Thankfully all the blood work came back OK! (A Blessings) Dr. Baker (plastic) wants to do a revision....to repair all the damage from the physical therapy I had in Tx. last March....stretched the pockets the implants are in. I asked about going smaller and he didn't think that would make any difference in the pain! Oh my....

When we got back to Il. for our month stay, I decided to get a second opinion on more surgery.
We went down to Nashville, Tn. last week and saw Dr. Haws...(Mindy went to school with our daughter Michele and Mindy's Mom is a childhood friend of mine that lives a mile from us here in Il....Mindy also referred me to Dr. Baker in Denver.)

I'm so glad I saw Mindy.....she thinks the implants are to wide for my body. I knew they made different sizes....but didn't know different widths!! She of course can't guarantee me that is will make all the pain leave....but feels that could be the cause for the pain under my arm and down along the sides....plus will be going smaller size and sewing up the pockets!! The thought of more surgery leaves me really anxious....but can't handle the thought of life like it is now. So will be praying for wisdom between now and Jan. when we are thinking about coming back to Nashville for the surgery.

I was really touched when someone sent me an e.mail written by Tony Snow...Pres. Bush's Press Secretary about his testimony as he fights with cancer. (Hit reply and I'll send it to you.) I may see if my friend Beth can post it on my blog on the side so others can read it.

Tony says at the end: "The mere thought of death somehow makes every blessing vivid, every happiness more luminous and intense. We may not know how our contest with sickness will end, but we have felt the ineluctable touch of God".

"What is man that Thou are mindful of him? We don't know much, but we know this: No matter where we are, no matter what we do, no matter how bleak or frightening our prospects, each and every one of us who believe, each and every day, lies in the same safe and impregnable place, in the hollow of God's hand." Tony Snow

This e.mail speaks for all believers who walk the journey through cancer....IN THE HOLLOW OF GOD'S HAND!! How blessed is that?

God Bless you all,
Donna

Praise and Thanksgiving Going On Here!

2007-08-28T19:05:00.000-07:00

Hi Special Family and Friends,

It's hard to believe it's been almost a month since I posted. I really wanted to wait.... praying to have some better news.

I have to confess I was really discouraged for almost a week after the injections in my spine....no relief at all.....until I think on the 6th day I woke up that morning and the pain in my back was gone. THANK YOU LORD....it has not returned at all!!

The 4 hr. trip (down and back) to south Denver for therapy is slowly helping....I think.
I have some days that are some better and then some days that aren't....but I'm thankful for any change for the better. I think she has magic hands....and the EASY exercises I'm doing to strengthen my shoulders is helping also.

I'm scheduled for a weekly trip until we leave here in Oct. Looking forward to less pain.....and hoping time will make it something I can handle.

I never feel I have the right words to express how much you each have meant to me an my family on this journey. I only pray that God can use me as an instrument of encouragement and comfort to others that He puts in my life that walk on similar paths of illness or struggles.

As I reflect on this past year, I can hardly believe the events that happened......yet the ONE VIVID THOUGHT that keeps returning is....our God is FAITHFUL! His mercies and grace overwhelm me. To God be the glory!!

I know that many of you reading this know exactly what I'm trying to express.....because you have experienced this in your life also. I pray that no matter what is right now... or may happen... in your life, that you too will experience His love for you and know and remember that He is indeed walking with His arm around you too. All we have to do is "ASK" Him!

Truly With God's Blessings,
Donna

"Come and listen, all you who fear God; let me tell you what He has done for me." Psalm 66:16 (My hearts desire for the rest of my life...that God will give me opportunities to share Him with those I meet.)

Good News---almost!

2007-07-31T18:20:00.000-07:00

Hi Everyone,

I just typed this whole entry and hit create.....instead of POST!! If by some small miracle you get this twice...you will know what happened.

Late yesterday after my Oncologists nurse called and said that the Dr. had seen the report of my PET/Ct. scan and was very encouraged. He said there was NO sign of cancer and we should repeat it in 6 months.

Barry, (radiation oncologist) and friend of our daughter Michele and husband Derek.....read my PET/CT report. He says that most folks from the Midwest who would have this test would see these in their lungs! I think he says it's from a mold...histoplasmaso... I think it's called. Not usually serious. So the next step was to see a Orthopedic Dr.

So at 4:50 p.m. yesterday I called an orthopedic Dr. in Longmont that Barry recommended. That Dr. was full for another month but if I could get there by 8:30 in the morning I could see another Dr. in the practice.

I saw him this morning. He took some x-rays. Said there was a little arthritis but not enough to cause this much pain. He says he sees 3 or 4 women a month that has had breast augmentation that causes so much pain between the shoulders and they have them removed! I HAD THE SAME SIZE I WAS PUT BACK IN.....sure glad I didn't go with the "Dolly Parton" size!! Oh my....don't even want to think about that!!

He gave me 4 or 5 shots of cortisone in my spine and that area and thought that might give me some relief. He told me he didn't have anything else that he could do.....except he gave me a prescription for the therapist to work on my back as well as my front side when I start Aug. 7th for weekly treatments down in Denver.
He called me about 5 this evening and said he had been thinking all day about what else might help. He suggested I check with my Oncologist about changing my Neurontin to a drug called Lyrica. I take it for the hot flashes....but also it's to help nerve ending pain. He thought that might be worth a try.

Perhaps it's time to learn to live with the pain. I know millions of people face each new day with extreme pain.

I feel so blessed the cancer has not spread... I'm going to look forward to the tomorrows that God is giving me and find hope in His mercy and grace.....praying that each day will be praise and glory to Him as each event unfolds in the days ahead.

Loving Him and each of you,
Donna

Delivery By Fed EX

2007-07-28T07:09:00.000-07:00

Hi loved ones and friends,

The past month has been another roller coaster with pain in the middle of my back between my shoulders. To try to make a short story, my P.T. had a cancellation July 6th and then again July 13th when I called with really big pain in my back she worked me in. She sent me to her chiropractor directly from her office. Neither one relived the pain. On July 19th called my oncologist to see about changing my cancer drug (arimidex) because I have stiff joints and my right thumb and writs was really swollen and thought it might be the reason for the pain in or near my spine. He wanted to see me ASAP.

Saw him July 20th...said it wasn't the cancer drug and wanted a PET/CT to make sure the cancer wasn't elsewhere. If that scan was OK...then he would order a MRI and recommend an orthopedic doctor. He gave me more BIG pain pill which I HATE to take...but was glad to get some relief.

Had PET/CT scan Wed. July 25th and the Dr. was to call me yesterday (27th)with the report. I had asked them to send me a copy of the report. About 4 p.m. Fed-Ex arrived with the report. I read it and was concerned...OK I was more than concerned for a while. Spent the next 30 minutes on line trying to translate some of the words. Called the Dr. office at 4:45 and was told they did not get the report and the Dr. had left. The nurse said if I would fax the report to her...she would look at it and call me back. There was some findings in the lungs that they suggested another CT followup in 6 months. The nurse was reassuring that if they were concerned...they would suggest another one sooner! I have had pneumonia several times so I'm thinking it might just be 'left over' stuff from that. She said the report would be on the Dr.'s desk and they would call me Monday.

So...I'm praying she is right. I know my fears are shared by thousands of women who are walking this journey and receive even the slightest idea that it might be developing elsewhere.....but I want to say that my second thought after reading the report was thanking God that I know He holds the plan and is holding my hand. What ever lies ahead for me I know He is with me each step of the way! What an awesome God we have.

I'm always amazed how so many days my devotional seems a sweet reminder from God. Today in my devotional from "My Utmost For His Highest" by Oswald Chambers ....the title was "God's Purpose or Mine?

I wish I had room to write the whole thing...put here's what touched my heart: "God's purpose is to enable me to see that He can walk on the storms of my life right now. If we have a further goal in mind, we are not paying enough attention to the present time. However, if we realize that moment-by-moment obedience is the goal, then each moment as it comes is precious!"

I can't fathom what life would be with out Him to walk with me! His mercies and grace are beyond words!

Thank YOU so much for walking with us also. Your love, prayers and long time concern are immeasurable!!

Praying God's blessing are folding your life this day!

Trusting Our Faithful God,
Donna

Hoping for help in August

2007-07-01T13:01:00.000-07:00

Hi Folks,

Never knew when I last wrote June 16th the pain that was coming ahead. Again I'm not the norm from what they told me. Should have had discomfort for 4 or 5 days after the tattooing....discomfort was not the word....hit the level 7 on the 10 scale for the next 10 days. Thankfully on the 11th day it started to lessen some. I'm running on about a 3 or 4 by end of the day.

I'm encouraged after my appointment last Thur. (June 28th) when I went down to Denver for a consultation with Julia Osborne (PT,CMLDT) who is the Clinic Director for Oncology, Women's Health. She specialized with gals with mastectomy pain and manual lymph drainage.

Her opinion is that I've never had real healing time since this began. That the whole area is inflamed...nerve endings, muscles and tissue. She says the therapy I had at the end of March in Tx. was MUCH TO AGGRESSIVE. (I had my reports faxed from Tx. to her.)
I knew it was aggressive when I had to continue BIG pain pills and ice.....and for 10 minutes each hr. I would do the exercises at home plus the 3 times a week I was at the therapist. I was willing to go through the pain....thinking that it would help in the end!

My frustration was not KNOWING what was good for my body. I've never been on this path before and if you are now.......maybe you body is different and it would work for you. I'm sure the therapist in Tx. thought they were doing what was right....I was also told she worked with gals with mastectomy pain?????

The part that I'm disappointed with now is that I can't start treatments until Aug. 7th....she is booked solid. I will then go once a week down the mountain to Denver for an hour of therapy. During the hour time we had last Thur...she spent the last 15 minutes on ONE side of GENTLE (the same pressure you would pet a cat!!) to see if I could see a difference when I got up. Maybe it was positive thinking but ...it had lessened the pain a little. She gave me 3 exercises to do twice a day ....same press sure as petting a cat....until I can see her.

So counting the days until Aug 7th and hoping there might be a cancellation before then.

That's the journey for now.....thanks so much for your continued prayers! They are precious as gold to me!!

Loving Him and YOU,
Donna

No Butterfly---But Headlights Are On Bright!!

2007-06-16T08:05:00.000-07:00

Hello Everyone,

Today brings memories of a year ago ....I was in surgery for the double mastectomy. What a journey of praise and pain. Both continue....Praises have increased and pain is diminishing...yet not gone.

I saw Dr. Baker May 18th and he removed the stitch that had been encased and needed to come out before the tattooing could be done. He was also quite concerned about the physical therapy and too much stretching of the pockets the implants are in. I didn't know they could be stretched....they have moved slightly. So when I have more therapy for the pain... I'm to tell them to keep their hands off the implants! Don't want to lay on my back and have them fall in my arm pits....oh my!!!

I left Dr. Baker's office and went to see Dr. Sedlacek, my oncologist. He didn't have an answer for the continued pain either. I have to admit the thought has occur ed many time to take them out. I asked him if having them replaced with smaller ones would help....no he didn't think so.
He asked if the pain was less than it was 6 months ago....yes....let's give it another 6 months and revaluate then. He did give me a prescription for Neurontin which he said might help the pain caused from the cut nerve endings and also the hot flashes. Thankfully the hot flashes have lessened...not seeing difference with the pain. But just less hot flashes is a praise!! The BIG praise was the blood report I receive a week or so later....it's GREAT! That is no small blessing....I know!! The nurse that called said she was happy to call with my report. I said I'm sure you don't have this news for many....she said," You are right...many I have the Dr. call, I can't bear to tell them". Thank You LORD!!

I went down to the Skin Institute of Denver Thursday (June 14th) to put the headlights on!!! What an experience! Had a great gal, Denise, do the art work (Tee Hee)! She didn't haven any "butterflies" in her magic bag! Before surgery last year they said I probably wouldn't have much feeling in the nipple area. I think I'm pleasantly surprised I do have!! Thank goodness for lidocane and (something--forgot what else it was in it)...it was a topical anesthetic that they applied and then I went and had lunch for an hour so they would become numb. She used an instrument about the size of a large ball point pen. The end looked to be about an 1/8 of inch wide...I was shocked when she said there were a 114 needles in the end of it. She placed a ring on her left index finger that had a tiny cup that held the dye...ink...not sure what it's called. She said it would make a sound like Velcro tearing apart...she was right. Each time she punctured the skin and pulled it out....sounded just like she said. It took over 2 hrs. Another surprise...I asked if it lasted a lifetime.....no...a couple of years for some and longer for others...oh my ...for me it might be a lifetime!!! That may be more than you wanted to know..... sorry.....but I'm always amazed how this all works!

For months I've been thinking and praying for the day I would close this journal because the journey would be complete. As the months go by, I'm realizing it doesn't just one day end....
no....it won't be a lifetime report. I've found things I wanted to close with and even started a file so I could find it when I was ready to sign off.....not sure when that will be. I'll probably update every couple of months.

Until then....thank you for your love and support to me and my family these past 12 months. Your prayers and love help us realize the importance the support of others means during times of trials. Each and everyone of your are a blessings. Please continue that support to others as God puts them in your lives each day. There are so many people who need a gentle hand or word of encouragement.

Hug your loved ones often and I'll be praying God's blessing are raining down on you and your precious family!

Truly With God's Blessings,
Donna

Mother Teresa said, "Today I meet Jesus in the most distressing disguise!"

(My heart desire for each of us......"Look to see where God is working and go join Him"!) Donna

Another Delay on the Journey

2007-05-13T07:13:00.000-07:00

Good Morning Dear Family and Friends,

Happy Mothers Day to all you mothers reading this. This day brings memories of my precious Mother who is home in heaven today. I know many of you don't have a Mom to hug today....but we can hug her in our hearts! As I received gifts and cards from our 2 daughters, I whispered a pray of thanksgiving that I'm here this year to receive them! Many who have been on this journey with me this year are no longer on earth today and being missed by many! I take my blessing of another year with much praise and thanksgiving.

We returned to the resort May 5th. I have to admit I had thoughts of dread to return to the site where I suffered so much last year.....but TYL (thank you Lord).....each day I'm praising God as I do each 'little" event and job and want to shout with joy "YEAH... I CAN DO IT TODAY!! It's truly a joy to be able to do the work and care for our guests when I couldn't last season!!! No dread here...TYL!!

May 4th was a visit to Dr. Baker, my plastic, who was very excited to see the end results of his hours of work and care. He thought my results and healing looked great! When discussing the remaining pain ...he is still baffled. His comment was, "I've never had a patient that had 1,000th the pain you have gone thru"! He will write an other prescription for therapy as soon as I can find someone in this area. I pray I can find someone who has lots of experience with breast reconstruction pain. As I watched a report last night on Fox, I was praising again the fact that I didn't get hooked on Oxycontin that they were reporting so many people have!!

We left Dr. Baker office to go the Skin Institute of Denver to get my "headlights" on!! That means tattooing the nipples! The disappointment occurred there! 1st. .they found a stitch that should have dissolved or come out and I will now see Dr. Baker to remove it May 18th. It will then have to heal before we can continue. 2nd...during the color and scratch test I didn't bleed!! Not good....you need blood flow to heal! They said I need 6 to 8 weeks to acclimate to the altitude!! Who would have thought that!! I see Dr. Sedlaeck, my oncologist, on May 18th when I go down to see Dr. Baker. In July I will have completed my 1st year of the 5 year medication treatment for my cancer drug....Arimidex. My biggest side effect is those awful hot flashes....but as someone told me.....they had never heard of anyone drying from a hot flash!! Some times I have to wonder about that!! Do you think anger could kill ya when you can't get a nights sleep!!

Well...that's the update here. It's always hard to express to you how much your love, prayers and concerns for me and my family have meant to us this past year. On the 18th of May will be the one year anniversary of the day I learned I had cancer. So much has happened since that day. As difficult as it has been, there have been so many awesome experiences I would never had know if this journey had not happened. The nearness of our loving Heavenly Father holding us... is at the top of the list along with family and friends like you that have prayed us through.

As I'm typing this I have the Gaither's tape playing and they are singing....Because He lives, all fear is gone....as fear gives way to victory... because I know he holds the future, My life if worth the living just because he lives!! I'll see the lights of glory and know He reigns!!

I have not seen the lights of glory yet...so pray He can use my life to serve others, and I can spend the rest of days of my life just giving Him the honor and glory! Our God is truly awesome!

Hug your loved ones often and watch for those "everyday" blessings He's sending your way!!

May God's blessing rain down on you and your precious families each day.

Joyfully His,
Donna

We can trust our loving Savior

To protect from life's alarms;

He's prepared a place of refuge

Safe within His mighty arms. ..Hess

Life's challenges are not designed to break us

but to bend us toward God!

I know the day will come.....

2007-03-27T11:54:00.000-07:00

Dear Family and Friends,

I know the day will come when pain will no longer have a hold on me. Time is helping and I'm seeing things in my daily activities that I can now do and couldn't do before. Yesterday I finished my last of 8 treatments of phycial therapy. Oh how I wish I had known this sooner!! I guess I was afraid to over due or damage myself by doing to many physical things. Tomorrow will be 3 months since the last surgery. They said I should have probably started therapy at the 4 week time frame....if the Dr. approved.

It has intensified the pain.....but they were able to break loose some of the scar tissue that is causing problems. So I know that in the big picture of things.... I am making progress. They said I would need 6 weeks of therapy....only had time for 2 weeks while here in Texas....but they gave me lots of stretching excercises that will help. Praying that I might not even need more theraphy if I stay focused on the exercises!!

I'm sorry I didn't write after Lloyd's stress test to tell you that our prayers were answered for him! He's doing great!! I'm not sure the part in the last note that said they would find it full of love showed up in the test....BUT I KNOW IT'S TRUE!!

We are looking forward to having 3 weeks in Il. before we head to Colorado for the summer.
I have an appointment with Dr. Baker (plastic surgeon) May 4th and also to have the bulbs made for my headlights!! (Tattooing) Do you think I should add a butterfly too?? Just kidding!!

I continue to be overwhelmed by your prayers and concerns. My heart ached as well as yours must be, for the news Elizabeth Edwards and Tony Snow received the last few days. It is such a vivid reminder of how blessed I am. I don't know what the future might hold for me....but I do know that He knows the plan. Such sweet peace! My prayer would be that you are covered with the same peac each day of your life. Be sure to contiune to love and hug on your families. Each day is so special!!! I pray God will continue to put people in our lives that we can minister to that are hurting.

Loving Him and you,
Donna

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acnowledge him, and he will direct your path. Proverbs 3: 5-6
(A verse I learned in church when just a child. It holds more meaning each year of my life!)

Touched By the Working of the Holy Spirit

2007-02-10T10:01:00.000-08:00

Dear Ones,

I have not posted for so long because I wanted to be able to tell you the pain was better when I next wrote to you all. Since I want this to be a true writing of my journey... I will not report anything but what is truly happening. I'm so tired of writing about pain and disappointed that it's been lasting so long for me. But I've been so blessed by the continued prayers of each of you. I know that God's carrying me through this journey and showing me how He is meeting my needs each day.

I just had to share with you the awesome working of the Holy Spirit in my life....it's so exciting to see such a visual expression of it to me.

Here's the awesome story of how the Holy Spirit is working in the lives of just one of His children....when in such need:

Last Wed.(02/07) was a more painful day than what I had been having. I was taking less of the 'big' pain pills and more Tylenold....which was part of the pain increase. I had decided Wed. night I wouldn't take a sleeping pill....just feel the need to get off them. I got up at 11:00 p.m. and spent the entire night with no sleep and huge pain....but did enjoy 2 hrs. of Beth Moore bible study from 2 a.m. - 4 a.m. I couldn't get comfortable any way I turned in the recliner trying to sleep.

Thur. morning when I went into the office, there was and e.mail from Linda Noel. Linda said she wanted to share with me her experience last night. Linda and her husband Jeff were the minister in our church in Il. and moved to Ky. 6 years ago. (Jeff married our daughter, Michele and Derek). I had not spoken directly to Linda since they had left....always e.mails with Jeff.

Anyway, Linda wrote that as she went to bed the Holy Spirit spoke to her heart that I was in need of prayer and she spent an hour interceding for me!!! It was such a hug to my heart as I read her words!!! Tears of joy poured out as I read it....and even as I type this now....to see how much God loves me....and all His children!! I know each of your prayers have been been heard and have made such a blessing to me and my family. NOW FOR GOOD NEWS!! I've been so much better since then. Pain free....not yet....but know God's working all things for my good. He will see me through.

Another special event happened Wed. that I want to share with you:

Our niece, Missy Milbourn had her first devotional posted on the "Proverb 31 Ministry"website Wednesday. God is using Missy in awesome ways.... as a wife, a Mom of 3 kids, Advertising Executive with WTHI-TV station Terre Haute, In. , our church minister of music and recording artist!!! She is so in touch with her relationship with God and working with God where ever He is working!! If you are looking for a great daily devotional, go to: www.proverbs31.org. and subscribe. To see Missy's devotional...at top of homepage on left hand side....click devotionals....click TODAYS devotional and scroll down to Feb. 7th---Duty Calls. Praying God continues to fill her heart with new devotionals and songs in the days ahead. We are so proud of her.

I had thought a month ago that I might be ending this journal with this writing...but see now the story isn't over yet. Victory will be in God's timing I know. My continued prayer request is to be drug free soon and pain a memory. Please lift Lloyd up in prayer Tues. morning. He will be having a nuclear heart stress test. It's a routine test...praying his heart is doing great....I know they will find it full of love!! :} How blessed to know the love of such and awesome husband....he such a wonderful testimony to our wedding vows..."In Sickness and In Health!!

Paying for you as you read this and asking for God's blessing in your lives!

Joyfully His,
Donna

"It is not for you to know the times or dates the Father has set by his own authority." Acts 1:7

Pathway in pain continues.......

2007-01-14T13:59:00.000-08:00

Hello Prayer Warriors,

We returned last night from 8 days with my twin sister Linda and her husband Wayne Ewbank in a condo "almost on the beach"(across the street) in Galveston, Tx. What a wonderful time to rest and read and have such loving care from them and Lloyd. Walks on the beach were great the seafood was awesome! I even thought I felt like a game of miniature golf and was hitting the ball 'easy' and keeping my arms close to my side......bad idea ..... later in the evening I was back at a level 9 on the pain scale of 10!! We left 75 degree temps. yesterday morning and arrived to 38 degrees in Austin!! What a change! There is to be an ice storm coming in tonight. I know from the weather channel, some of you might be getting bad weather also!!

I'm totally shocked to be in such pain yet.....17 days later....but who's counting!! When I had a chance to take a look at the incisions, the right one wasn't as big an incision as I first thought.....although both sides were probably 3 inches. I'm so thankfully for pain and sleeping pills. I know in time I will be able to scale back once again! My heart goes out to everyone who endures pain every day of their life. One of the most important lessons from this journey that I've been blessed to learn...... is understanding what others endure. Knowing God is holding me, makes it possible to face a new day.

Just wanted to drop you a note and update. We are home for 2 weeks. Praying I'll feel better by Jan. 28th when we leave on a cruise out of Galveston. I'll try to update with better news when we return from that trip.

We are so blessed by your prayers and concern. I pray we can be a prayer warrior for you.... if life should put challenges in your life....just let us know your needs!! In church today, the pastor mentioned we have 2 worlds to complete. Here on earth and eternity! Our journey here is not promised to be easy....but we are promised God will be with us if we seek Him. It's so neat to know that God's help is only a prayer away!! Not sure why he used the word "complete"....because eternity...is just that....eternity! Wow....forever praising and worshiping our awesome God!! If by some chance you don't have that assurance for eternity, please send me a note and let me share with you about the loving grace of God.

I may have used this verse before....but it hugged my heart today:

God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble! Psalm 46:1

Loving Him and you,
Donna

Thank You Lord... The Last Surgery is Over!!

2006-12-30T10:25:00.000-08:00

Dear Ones,

I'm sitting looking out at the most beautiful picture I've ever seen! Every branch and shrub is wrapped in about 3- 4 inches of snow. There must be over 30 inches of snow on the ground. How can one not believe in God when you see His hand on this beautiful picture?

Thankfully we made it back to Michele's yesterday afternoon after a BUMPY drive!! I awoke to huge pain after surgery. I saw shocked because I was told the nipple reconstruction was a "piece of cake"...mainly because there isn't much feeling in that area. However....he did major change in the right breast to reposition it with a huge incision from around the bottom of the breast up to the top.....and another incision in the left breast to lower it a bit. ....thus the PAIN!
Some day I'll be glad Dr. Baker is a perfectionist....today...it's hard to appreciate!! I'm back on the BIG pain pills and will not hesitate to take them because I know I'm not hooked and can stop when I don't have pain. Thank You Lord!!

I've never been one to cry.....it gives me a horrible headache....so I just don't cry!! However this surgery and yesterday made them flow before I could stop them. It's amazing....God sent me a message today in my devotional that makes my heart soar!! It's written by Joni Eareckson Tada:

Every Tear

Revelation 21:1-5

"(God) will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or PAIN, for the old order of things has passed away."

It's not merely that heaven will be wonderful in spite of our anguish: it will be wonderful because of it! Suffering serves us. A faithful response to affliction accrues a weight of glory. A bounteous reward. God has every intention of rewarding your endurance. Why else would he meticulously chronicle every one of your tears? "record my lament; list my tears on your scroll---are they not on your record?" (Psalm 56:8)

Every tear you've cried will be redeemed. God will give you indescribable glory for your grief. Not with a general wave of the hand, but in a considered and specific way. Each tear has been listed: each will be recompensed. The worth of our weeping is underscored again in today's verse, "he will wipe every tear from their eyes." It won't be the duty of angles or others. It'll be God's!!! Thank you Joni for these wonderful words of encouragement....when I needed them most.

More tears were shed as I read this precious love letter to me and YOU!! Isn't God's timing perfect!!! I know many of you reading this are in pain...for various reasons and your tears are being recorded by God also! I pray this thought will give you strength to reach for another day and know you are not alone!

Thank you dear ones for your continued prayers for me and my family! I know as days go past the pain will lessen and be gone....but I never want to forget 2006 and the over powering love God has had for me and you! His promises made to me are fulfilled and it's very humbling!

We go back to see Dr. Baker at 8:30 Tues. (Jan. 2) for a follow-up. If everything is OK...we will hit the road again for Tx. Looking forward to spend a week with my twin sister Linda and her husband Wayne, in Galveston starting Jan. 5th. I probably won't post again until we return from that trip!

Happy New Year to all. Praying God will be pouring blessings on each of you and your families through out this New Year! Be sure to watch for those "everyday" blessings He's sending you each day!

Loving Him and you,

Donna

She's Out of Surgery!

2006-12-28T17:54:00.000-08:00

Mom just got out of surgery. She was scheduled for 2pm this afternoon, but she didn't go in until 4:15. She is now in recovery. Dr. Baker said everything went well! It will be another 45 minutes before Dad will be able to see her. However, she is already awake and talking. She will be able to spend tonight at the hospital. This is a praise since we are having another major snowstorm right now. They will head back up to Longmont either tomorrow am or afternoon....depending on the weather. The worst of the storm is suppose to be tomorrow. We all appreciate your prayers and support! Love, Michele

Wishing You All A Special Christmas

2006-12-24T18:42:00.000-08:00

Hello Everyone,

It's Christmas eve and we just finished making cookies for Santa and baking Jesus birthday cake for tomorrow's lunch. Haley 8 and Kallie 5 are so excited I don't think they will sleep tonight!

Missing my surgery Fri. because of the blizzard has a great silver lining!! I'm feeling good and enjoyed services today at church and time with the grandkids. Only thing better would be to have our daughter Teresa and her family with us too! Maybe next year.

Surgery is now rescheduled for Dec. 28th at 2:00 p.m. Third time must be a charm! I SURE HOPE SO! We will stay here in Co. until we see Dr. Baker for a follow -up on Jan. 2nd. and then head back to Tx. that day.

Your continued prayers are such a blessing to me and my family! I wish I had better words and ways to thank you for all you have done for us. My heart is over flowing with awe and joy to see your love for us. This has been a year of seeing God's hand on our lives and lots of daily blessings! It has been a long year of pain....yet I never felt alone. I knew there has been a plan for this journey from the start and God would walk with me each step of the way. The support of Lloyd, my family and each of you has been incredible.

We pray Christmas will hold special memories for you and your families this year. For some reading this, I know you are missing loved one for the first time this year. Hold fast to the happy memories. For others perhaps you have family problems. There will not be family dinners. I pray you will find the One who knows your heart and your pain. God wants us all to reach for His hand...he knows our hurts, sorrows, pain and suffering. Reach out to others...and seek to know God and his love!

Need to get to bed....2 little girls will be waking us early! Hug each other for us!!

Merry Christmas......Easter is coming!

Joyfully His,
Donna`

Be Still and Know........

2006-12-21T13:04:00.000-08:00

that I am God. Psalm 46:10

All I can think and say it is not my will.....we are in God's hands in the blizzard of 2006. Surgery tomorrow in Denver at 6 a.m. will not happen AGAIN.

We are snug and warm in the Comfort Inn in Colby, Ks. Yesterday at 11:30 a.m. the State Police were making everyone get off I 70 west to Denver because of the storm!! We thought we would be able to get back on the road today.....but at 3 p.m. as I write... I 70 is still closed and we hear it probably won't open until tomorrow morning.....250 miles from Denver!! I've had 2 calls into my Dr. ...haven't heard back....called the hospital....they were in meetings about scheduling surgery tomorrow and I'm to call back.....just wanted to let them know I was going to be a 'no show'!!

Thanks for all the calls I'm getting from many of you about our location and safety on the road.
Anxious to see when we can reschedule. The journey continues....will keep you posted.

Trusting Our Faithful God,
Donna

Path to Prayer:
Lord of Hope, I place my trust in you and I praise you for making all things well with my soul. Please receive glory as I magnify and adore your name, lifting my soul before you. With you, there is no reason to be downhearted.

2006-12-21T07:25:00.000-08:00

This is the scene we're stuck in!

God Is Holding Me And My Disappointed Heart!

2006-11-30T14:10:00.000-08:00

Dear Ones,

To everything there is a season, a time for every purpose under heaven. Ecclesiastes 3:1. This verse can really hold new meaning for me right now.

I do have good news however. The 24 hr. stay in the hospital was just a resting place. They didn't do another MRI. Dr. Kaplan my neurologist didn't see any real concern. She thinks it might have been a sleeping pill I took and not going to bed for about 40 minutes afterwards. (I remembered other stuff I needed to do after I took it). Oh my....who would have guessed that could be such a huge problem. I debated all the way to the pre-op room Tues. morning whether to tell Dr. Baker what happened. He repeatedly told us it was the right thing to do.....even though he put a STOP to the surgery and admitted me to the hospital. My spell in Sept. was enough to concern us all. Dr. Baker said in ways it would be even better to give my incisions more time to heal....although they are doing good!

Well the news now is....Surgery will beDec. 22nd. at 7:30 a.m. 3 MORE WEEKS!! I'm trying to understand the purpose....there is one I'm sure! So we will be spending Christmas in Co. We leave for Tx. in the morning. 1000 miles one way!! Will head back to Co. on the 19th. Want to get here a couple of days early to avoid the altitude headache that might have been part of it!

Once again I can't find enough words to thank you for the prayers for my family and me.
I'm always amazed how God's word is just right for me on days of struggle. Tues. morning the devotional in the "Our Daily Bread" read..... The storm will not last forever. Yet, while it rages, you can cling to the Lord's promises of love and faithfulness, for His "testimonies are very sure" (Ps. 93:5). Waves of trouble and grief may sweep over you, but you will not be swept away. He "is able to keep you from stumbling"(Jude 24). OUR FATHER IN HEAVEN IS HOLDING YOUR HAND....(WHAT AN AWESOME PROMISE...DONNA'S THOUGHTS)....By David Roper

WHEN ADVERSITY IS READY TO STRIKE US, THEN GOD IS MOST READY TO STRENGTHEN US!

Stronger now,
Donna

God's Timing Is Not Always Our Timing

2006-11-28T09:51:00.000-08:00

Please continue to keep praying for Mom! I received a call from Mom about 15 minutes after the surgery should have started. She told me that they were at the hospital but have had to cancel the surgery for today.

They arrived to Derek & Michele's last night and when she was getting ready for bed she had another episode, similar to the one in September, but not near as bad. It only lasted about 10 minutes with no severe headache. Praise the Lord!

When they arrived this morning for the surgery, the doctor decided to postpone the surgery and admit Mom for further test I am thankful that she is in Colorado where the neurologist is that saw her in September. They will monitor her for a day and may order an MRI. The neurologist does not think it is anything serious at this time.

I know that Mom must be disappointed and that her and Dad are both ready to complete this process. Please pray for peace and comfort for them. Pray for wisdom for the doctors.

Thank you for your continued prayers! God is in Control!

Blessings,
Teresa

Yes Lord, I know you knew I needed to rest....but..........

2006-11-21T06:37:00.000-08:00

did I have to break a bone in my foot the first day we arrive in Playa Del Carmen, Mexico????
I knew then you must have really meant REST!!!

Oh my....the journey moves on!!

Thank you so much for the prayers for us as we drove 2 cars to Tx. A special thanks to Scott Claypool who offered to drive me and my car and then the offer of Jeff Bradley when we arrived to Little Rock, Ar. to do the same. I know angels were around us the whole way! First day in Tx. (Nov. 8th) I had decided I wasn't going to Mexico...I was too exhausted...but by Sat. (Nov. 11th) I was ready to go!

It will be a vacation to remember. We had 3 beautiful condos on the beach! I went to my sister's condo to borrow a couple of pillows they weren't using. On the way back to our condo, I missed the LAST step and heard and felt a snap as my ankle turned and I went crashing down!! BUT...I LANDED ON 2 HUGE PILLOWS!!! No skinned knees, elbows or new boobs!!! GOD DOES PROVIDE!! THANK YOU LORD!! Why else would I be carrying 2 pillows when I fell? Think about it!!! It's awesome that the one who created our world cares enough about us to be there to intervene in our lives! Be sure to watch for those times in your day!!

We were on the 3rd floor with NO elevators. Of course crutches were out of the question with my resent surgery!!! So indeed I did rest! Lots of time reading with my foot iced and up on a pillow. It turned the whole foot, including the toes black and blue. Now it's sort of a yellow and doing much better. By the 3rd day I could put a little weight on it and I was able to find a hammock by the beach and really enjoyed the breeze and view!! The rest was wonderful! We returned Sat. afternoon with lots of really special memories made with 15 of our family members!!

I must share with you some really great news!!! The pain is much better. THANK YOU LORD! I'm now down to 1 Percets a day....no more Oxycotin or sleeping pills. I also want to thank my special friend Angie who I saw in Il. while I was home. She had the same surgery 10 months before I did. She needs to be the "Breast Cancer Cheerleader"!! Our time together was truly a gift from God. The one thing that really stuck in my mind was when she said, "Hey this is the new me and it's ok"! It may sound silly....I knew I would never be the same....but now my heart can say...."It's OK...this is the new me"! Thanks Angie!!

We had planned to be in Co. with our daughter Michele and her family for Thanksgiving....but I needed more than 3 days home before we left again. So the plan now is to spend Thanksgiving with our daughter Teresa's husband Tabb's family. We leave this Sunday (Nov. 26) and drive to Co.....arriving Monday late afternoon....surgery is Tues. 28th. Will need to stay in Co. for a week to 10 day so I can see Dr. Baker again before we head home.

When you are talking with God, please seek travel blessings as we drive to Co. (AND FOR ALL OF YOU IF YOU ARE TRAVELING THIS WEEK.) Also for the surgery Tues. Nov. 28th at 9:00 a.m. It should take 2-or 2 1/2 hrs.

Thanksgiving is my favorite time of the year. At least the 'political correct' people haven't taken that from us yet!!! I'm so thankful that in 1863 President Abraham Lincoln established this as a national holiday in the United States! I know many of you are busy planning what to fix (or where to go out and eat) with your family. Perhaps holidays are really hard for some of you that are reading this, because of events in your life that are really difficult for you now. My prayer will be that all of you have a special day....and time to express gratitude to God for his mercy and blessings in your life.

On my list of blessings Thanksgiving Day.... will be each of you! Thank you for taking this journey with me. I feel really humbled by the love you have shown me and my family. You have send me cards that must measure 5 inches tall and a REAM (500) sheets of e.mails of encouragement! (They are all in a note BIG note book.) How blessed can I be??? I only pray that God will guide me to people I can share this experience with who are hurting and need the same encouragement you have given me. It will take the rest of my life to repay your love.

Thankfully His,
Donna

A thought to leave you with: Before you woke this morning, God's thoughts were with you!!! :}:}
P.S. The silly spell check won't work...sorry no time to proof....if you have been on this journey with me...you should know by now...spelling wasn't my best subject!!

The Journey Continues..Heading to Tx, Sunday

2006-11-03T18:43:00.000-08:00

Hello Special Ones,

Just a note to bring you up to date. We have enjoyed the short 10 days we have had in Il. visiting family and friends.

I want to share a couple of neat things that have happened since I last wrote:

1. Remember me telling you about a song called "Servant's Heart" that has meant so much to me written by Randy Whitten? I met Randy last year at the YMCA when he did a concert. I have this song on CD that played all summer by my desk as I worked. Well if you scroll down a couple of e.mails ....a day or 2 after my surgery Oct. 17....there are 2 notes (click comments) FROM RANDY!!! (Randy I would have liked to replied, but this blog will not let me see anyones e.mail address that sends a comment, and your CD with the song and your e.mail address are PACKED!) It was so very special that you signed my blog!! What an amazing world we live in that you found my blog!!

2. Remember Beth Rudy....the gal God put in my life the day I learned I had cancer. Beth was one of our guests at the resort who was attending a Christian writers convention at the YMCA.
Beth is the one who made this blog for me! She was there to pray and cry with me by the banks of the "Big Thompson River" that runs through the resort!! Here's the really neat part....Beth lives in Pa. I didn't know when I'd ever see her again and.....last week-end she was at a conference just 30 miles from where we live when we are in Il...AND THIS CONFERENCE HAPPENED DURING THE SHORT STAY WE HAVE HERE IN ILLINOIS!! The speaker at the conference was Henry Blackby who wrote "Experiencing God". This book changed my life and also was what helped Beth feel the call into her ministry writing "Prayer Pal"! Beth and our niece Melissa Milbourn were on a 'spiritual high' and it was awesome to spend time with them!! Totally God's timing!!

I will never feel I have enough words to express how much your continued prayers for me and my family mean to us. I'm still struggling with pain.....but not the horrible pain of the expanders. I look forward to this passing some day!

As you pray, I'd like to ask for travel blessings as we take 2 cars to Tx. We will arrive Tues. evening to our home there. I'm concerned with the long drive. Then 3 days later.... the following Sat. Nov. 11th we fly to Cancun for our family vacation. Please pray for strength and safety for all of us. I'm going to look for a palm tree and crash.

We will then drive back to Co. for Thanksgiving with Michele and family and on Nov. 28th I'll have the next surgery to make the 'headlights'!! (nipples)Tee Hee! It's amazing what can be done in the days we live in today!!

Since we will only be in Tx. 3 days to unload and pack for vacation.....I'm not sure I'll be back on until we return from Mx. Nov. 18th.

As I sign off tonight....I wanted to share part of a devotional. I'm just amazed at how God knows the words I need!! It's written by Dave Branon and it's called "Temporary"....

In 1 Peter, the apostle described an exchange of tough times for good results. He was writing about the temporary tough times that come into our lives even though we haven't chosen them, and he indicated that they can have lasting benefit. We rejoice during our trials, not for the trial itself but for the coming glory and honor, which is permanent!!

Tough times can bring pain and sadness---and they don't seem to promise any good news at all. But Peter told us to "greatly rejoice" in them (1:6-7) He wanted us to look ahead to the forever joy that is promised---a joy that will help us understand the temporary tough times!!

You dear ones are in my prayers also....it seems each of us have tough times and I pray you can feel and know that God is with you and me!!

Rejoicing,
Donna

Heading to Illinois Tomorrow

2006-10-23T12:13:00.000-07:00

Hello Everyone,

When I logged in I thought I'd find a message I sent since the implant surgery....wasn't there....guess I must have dreamed I wrote! Sorry it's been so long! Teresa arrived home Sat. to 3 happy guys!! It was so great to have her with us!

The question everyone is asking me....is the pain gone? NO....but I think I can say it's a different pain. I don't feel the ruff edges of the expanders pushing on me. I'm praying the pain is the (normal) pain from surgery. We see Dr. Baker in the morning at 9:30 and will be anxious to see how he thinks I'm doing.

I'm a little anxious to be leaving Dr. Baker so soon....please pray everything is ok. Also for travel blessings.

It will be a while before I get back on line. We will be back in Il. Wed. night....but may take a few days to get on line.

I can't tell you how much your prayers have meant to us.
I know God is holding us close to him and this journey will soon be over....but I will never be the same. I'll be praying God will use this journey so I can let others know that He is with us...even when we don't feel it....even when the pain is horrible....we are not alone. I have such a strong desire to share that with others.

Lloyd's ready to pack my computer so must close. I pray your days are special and you will be watching for the little events that happen in your life and know He has planned them just for you!!

Joyfully His,
Donna
To those who have no might (God) increases strength. Isaiah 40:29

Thank You Again for Your Prayers!!

2006-10-17T15:22:00.000-07:00

Just a short note to let you know that Mom came through her surgery today. She went in around 9:00 and was out by about 12:30. We had a call part way through surgery to let us know that she was stable and doing well. Praise the Lord! We were concerned because of her unexplained episode in September. Dr Baker told us that everything went well. No obvious scar tissue or nerve damage that may have been causing the pain. So we continue to pray, now that the expanders are out and the implants are in, that the pain will subside.

It is snowing here in Denver so Dad and Michele headed back to Longmont to beat the rush hour traffic and the weather. I will be spending the night with Mom and she will be released tomorrow.

She is getting excellent care this time around, not as many patients on the floor. They put a pain pump in again and even remembered to turn it on during surgery. (The first question we asked!) Mom is smiling and cheering that the surgery is over.

Thank you for your continued prayers. We treasure each of you!

Blessings to you and your family,
Teresa

Tomorrow----The Day I've Been Waiting For!!

2006-10-16T19:07:00.000-07:00

Hello Dear Family and Friends,

13 more hours and I'll be riding the cart into surgery!! I can't tell you how excited I am to get the expanders out and the implants in!!!

I need to share how God is blessing me with more precious events these last few days!! I've received calls, cards and e.mail....each and every day from lots of you special folks who have been reading this.

I was very impressed with Dr. Smith that Teresa and I saw last Thur. He will be the one to put me to sleep in the morning....plus will help be with pain afterwards as I heal...if I need it.

God sent 2 people to our resort these last couple of days. The first folks were stopping to see about renting next summer. We told them that they had to call us by Sunday (15th) to get this years rate...that we were closing....long story short my surgery was mentioned and after visiting a couple of mintues she asked if she could pray with me. So awesome!

Yesterday, a family checked into one of the properties we manage. Lloyd checked them in and I didn't meet them. Lloyd mentioned something about my surgery would be Tues and he (Lloyd) would be back up to Estes Wed. to see them before left. Half hour later Lloyd was in the tub and the man came back. He said he and his wife wanted to be praying for me Tues. and would I share with him what kind of surgery and what my needs were. I explained....he said...can I pray for you? It was a beautiful prayer!! I asked him if he was a minister....he said no, just a sinner saved by grace 8 years ago and trying to make up for a life time without the Lord!!

The icing on the cake was the hug my heart felt as we came down the mountain to Michele's this evening, when God placed His rainbow in the sky ahead of us!! I'ts like He was telling me I could count on Him. I know He will be holding us all close to His heart!!

I want you to know I have such peace about tomorrow. Please say a prayer for Dr. Baker and Dr. Smith for skilled hands and wisdom as they take care of me . Please include Lloyd, Teresa, Michele and our families and friends. An most of all...if it's God will for me....that this horrible pain will be gone.

One of our girls will post to the web tomorrow evening...or at least Wed. I will spend 23 hrs. at the hospitla after surgery....just so they can keep an eye on me!

Gotta head to bed...we leave at 6 a.m.....surgery scheduled for 9.

Thanks sooooooo much for the prayers!

Joyfully His,
Donna

To those who have no might (God) increases strength. Isaiah 40:29

Greetings From Snowy Colorado

2006-10-10T19:36:00.000-07:00

Good Evening Loved Ones,

We had our first snow of the season yesterday and last night. About 2 inches this morning! It is just so awesome to see the ground white and the beautiful Ponderosa Pine tress with branches covered with snow!! I feel it's a beautiful gift of God's to cheer my heart and give it a lift!

Things are happening so fast this week. We close the resort this Sunday (Oct. 15). Then the day I've been longing for is just a week away (17th) for my surgery to take the expanders out (and hopefully the pain) and put the implants in. This added month of waiting for the surgery seemed to last forever!! I just give God the praise and glory that I have not had ANY residual effects from my "spell" Sept. 14th! Only a miracle....is all I can say! God's mercies to me are awesome!! I just feel overwhelmed with the MANY miracles He has granted me in my life. I'm so blessed!!

When I saw Dr. Kaplan Sept. 29 (neurologist) she recommended I still find a pain doctor. She is also a "pain doctor."....but said she only deals in head pain....mines a little lower down :}:}. So I called the pain doctor that Dr. Baker recommended. When I talked to them, they said I should have Dr. Baker(plastic) schedule the person who will be my anesthesilogist the 17th to also be someone who is specialized chronic pain!! I had no idea that many anesthesiologist are also pain doctors!! So.......Thur. 12th at 3:15 Teresa (daughter) and I have an appointment with Dr. Smith (just love all these simple names for Drs.....(Baker, Young, Smith):}:} I'll feel so much better meeting him more than the normal 5 minutes before they take you to operating room and put you to sleep....expecially since the event on the 14th last month!! Plus....knowing there will be someone just incase I need a little more help after the surgery with the pain. I'm just amazed how God works out these little details!!

You have all been so incredible to pray for all of us. Here's some requests when you are talking to God.

1. Ask God to shower a ton of blessings ON EACH OF YOU AND YOUR FAMILIES!! Such awesome prayer warriors you are!

2. Please pray for travel blessings for Teresa, our daughter from Tx. She flys in tomorrow for 10 days. I know it's a real sacrifice for her husband and boys to have her gone again so long....but so awesome for us! Thanks guys!!

3. Please pray for travel blessings for our daughter Michele who flys to North Carolina for her job tomorrow and will be gone for 3 days.....and for hubby and daughters while she is gone.

4. Please pray for wisdome for Dr. Smith... the pain doctor to know what to do with me Thursday!! The pain continues to be hard each day.... I can almost see a light at the end of the tunnel with the upcoming surgery! Can't wait for the sunshine!!

5. Please pray for the love of my life, Lloyd......for extra strength to finish this hetic week and that God will show us both what He is preparing us for thru this journey.

6. That I remain healthy and this scratchy throat doesn't get worse.

You all are awesome....we are blessed that God has put you in our lives!! Watch for those everyday blessings He's sending you way!!

Loving Him and each of you,
Donna
Psalm 27:13 I would have lost heart, unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living!!

A Time to Wait!

2006-09-30T11:18:00.000-07:00

Hello Everyone,

I'm sorry I haven't written for 11 days. Been trying to take it easy....which has been possible with Linda and Wayne arriving Sat. the 16 and leaving Wed. the 27th. What an incredible blessings for us and the resort. Michele, our daughter, is here for the week-end to catch me up.

Yesterday (29th) Michele took me back to Denver to see a couple of Dr.s Met with Dr. Kaplan my nuerologist and Dr. Sedlacek my oncologist. Both are stumped on what happened to me Sept. 14th. She still thinks it was a TIA or a migraine with nurological side effects....but they didn't exactly fit those patterns either!! Dr. Kaplan did say the spinal tap came back normal...TYL!! (thank you Lord)! And Dr. Sedlacek insists the Arimidex (cancer drug) or black cohash for hot flashes I now have) did not cause the 'spell' either!! While at the hospital in Denver they printed off info. and gave us that said the 2 drugs above could have side effects taken together!!! Oh my....what to think....yet so easy to know that there is one that does know....and God sees the bigger picture. Love Psalm 138:3 You know my sitting down and my rising up; You understand my thought afar off. You comprehend my path and my lying down, and are acquainted with all my ways!! That's like God reaching down with a hug....isn't it?
I did quit taking the black cohash...will just suffer like millions of other women do. I'm blessed I made it this long with out them!!

I'm really feeling the same as I did before Sept. 14th. Still having BIG pain with my expanders. I do have enough pain pills to get me to surgery on the OCT. 17th. Seventeen more days....and I am counting!! We are so blessed that our daughter Teresa from Tx. will fly in Oct. 11th to help us the last few days to close the resort (Oct. 15th)...PLUS be here for the surgery. It will mean a lot to all of us to be together that day. It has been so hard on Teresa being in Texas when we didn't know what was happening to me on the 14th.

Teresa mailed me a book that I've enjoyed so much. It's called... Just Enough LIGHT for the Step I'm on ....by Stormie Omartian. Guys....this is an awesome book for ANYONE going through challanges in their life. A GREAT GIFT if you want to try to help someone.! She also wrote.."The Power of a Praying Wife"...which is great!!

I agree so much with Stormie when she says this: "None of us like pain, uncertainty, strife, or frustration. We want things to run along smoothly. But the challenging and miserable times are not without their aspect of good."

"Things happen to us during those times that are as precious as diamonds. For it is then that we have the opportunity to experience the Lord's presence in a deeper way. If we embrace the moment, we see Him in it!!!" (Stormie Omartian)

How very true. I have felt God's presence in each event of this journey. My daily prayer is that God can use my life for His glory. He know the reasons and the timing for all of us!

When you are talking with God, please whisper the following:
1. For extra strength for our family...especially Lloyd. He is working so hard.
2. For me to not be over whelmed with the pain...just enough strength for each day.
3. That the surgery goes will and the pain will be gone with the permanent implants.
4. And God will be gloryfied!!

I'll write again before surgery. Thanks so much for all your concerns and especially your prayers. I know tons of you have put me on your church prayer list and asked many of your friends to pray also......there just enought words to express what that means to us!! We had a card yesterdary from "Westmoreland Church" in Westmoreland, Tn.???? Have no idea who or where....but God does and He's answering their prayers!! Blessed beyond measure!!

I'd like to close with the first page of "Just Enought Light":

Sometimes only the step I'm on,

or the very next one ahead,

is all that is illuminated for me.

God gives just the amount of light I need

for the exact moment I need it.

At those times I walk in surrender to faith,

unable to see the future

and not fully comprehending the past.

And because it is God who has given me

what light I have,

I know I must reject the fear and

doubt that threaten to overtake me.

I must determine to be content where

I am, and allow God to get me where I

need to go.

I walk forward,

one step at a time,

fully trusting that

the light God sheds

is absolutely sufficient.

Look for the light,

Donna

P. S. I'm baby sitting the resort down the street, (Connie's brother died) and writing this on her computer and when I clicked on 'spell check'....I needed to change something on the computer.....so here goes another one with errors!!

Thank You--Thank You For Your Prayers

2006-09-19T17:57:00.000-07:00

Hello Family and Friends,

Just a short note to let you know I'm still around. I'm so terrible sorry to scare everyone to death!!

This evening I can say I'm feel about like I did on Thur. morning. It brought back such vivid memories of 1977 when I was touched by God's hand and healed after 5 weeks in the hospital of a mystery major illness. Had massive infection in the right side of my brain that paralayzed my left side.

Another illness hit Thur. Sept. 14th about one o'clock.....with some vision problems about 5 minutes later numbness in right arm and side of face and 30 second the left side and slurred speech. But THANK YOU LORD I was coming out if some what by 12 hrs. and back to almost normal the next morning. I'm so very, very blessed! It appeareaed so serious!!

I had a spinal tap at about midnight Fri. Ever since that procedure I've had HUGE headaches when I would stand or sit.......ended up with a leak where they went in. Linda and Wayne took be back to the hospital in Denver at 1:30 today. They did a blood patch!! Took blood from my arm and place in the whole where they did the puncture in my back. Almost before I was moved from the table my headache was gone! Kind of sounds like a tire patch doesn't it??

The thing that is hardest for me to accept is my surgery to take the expanders our was to have been today and now I have to wait another month!!! But I know there is a reason for this delay.
One positive thing is that the resort will be closed 2 days before.

I need to go lay back down.....but felt such a need to THANK YOU FOR YOUR AWESOME PRAYERS.....THEY ARE PRICELESS TO MY FAMILY AND ME!!

God Bless each and everyone of you!

Loving Him and you,
Donna & Family
Ps...don't feel like spelling...I'm sure there are errors!! :}

Thank you for your continued prayers!

2006-09-17T11:56:00.000-07:00

Mom was released from the hospital yesterday evening. They are still waiting on final reports from the spinal tap. Specifically West Nile Virus. I spoke with her a couple of hours ago and she still has a bad headache, which she thinks is from the spinal tap. She also did not sleep well last night.

She is currently staying at Michele's right now, Dad is at the resort and I don't know what type of schedule they are working on or who will be helping Dad at Estes.

Her surgery has been postponed until October 17th, which I know is a disappointment for mom, but I am thankful that she will be able to truly rest after this surgery becuase the resort will be closed the first part of October.

Please pray for God's continued protection of Mom and her health. We are praying for no repeat episodes. Pray a hedge of protection around Dad and Michele also, one can not experience what they did with Mom and not be effected. Pray for Mom to get plenty of rest as she prepares for the second surgery. Since we do not have a clear diagnosis, please pray for wisdom and discernment in the ALL the details of their lives over the next few weeks.

We thank God for each of you and are blessed to know that we can call on others in our time of need. We are thankful that God is at work and is in control!

Love,
Teresa

PRAISE GOD!!

2006-09-16T09:24:00.000-07:00

Mom received a spinal tap at midnight last night, her experience with so many spinal taps 30 years ago were very painful. Modern medicince has improved and the most pain was the local that they gave her before the spinal tap. Michele was able to be with her during the test.

We just received the results and everything came back clear! PTL!!

The diagnosis is still not clear but they are treating it as a TIA, which I think is like a mini stroke but does not show up on an MRI. She will need to take an asprin everyday and monitor her blood pressure and cholesteral (sp). They also think that it may have been a complex neurological migrane (sp). She will be given a perscription for migranes to take if she feels one coming on. She had symptoms of both of these, which is why the diagnosis is not clear.

From the bottom of my heart, I want to thank all of you who have been praying for our family. I can not begin to tell you how comforting it is to know that we can reach out and ask for others to pray on our behalf. We rejoice in knowing that God was with us and heard our prayers.

We are encouraging Mom to stay at Michele's for a couple of days before going back to Estes Park. We assume that the surgery will be postponed to give her time to rest. We will keep you posted.

Love,
Teresa

Update on Mom

2006-09-15T17:15:00.000-07:00

This is an update on the past day and a half since an urgent prayer request was made for Mom and our family. Thank you Beth for posting the request. Please forgive me if I don't have all the details correct or the timing exactly right. But I know at 3:00 mountain time yesterday I called the resort to talk to Dad and I knew something was wrong. Donna Schrag, a friend and manager of another resort answered the phone. Dad had rushed Mom to the emergency room with blurred vision, slurred speach,memory loss, numbness on one side and severe pain. Michele drove up to Estes Park and Mom did not even recognize Michele when she arrived. It was really a frightening situation. Their good friend and doctor, Barry also met Dad and Michele at the hospital in Estes. After a CT scan was performed it showed to be clear but they felt like an MRI needed to be performed. This hospital did not have an MRI so they transported Mom by ambulance to St Luke's in Denver. She was incoherent off and on through out the night. She did not recognize Barry or her plastic surgeon, Dr Baker who came to check on her last night. She could not tell them where her pain was and they did not want to give her any medicine for the pain until she saw the nuerologist. Dad and Michele stayed with her at the hospital and they said she had a restless night and kept saying "pain, pain, pain". At some point she was able to tell them it was her head that hurt so bad.

Thank you for all your prayers last night because by this morning the doctors were amazed at her progress. All of her symptoms had ceased except for the severe headache! And she also remembered everything from last night!

At some point today they did give her some medicine to ease the headache but it was coming back late this afternoon. Today was a day of waiting for test to be run. So far they have done a sonogram of her heart and an MRI of her head. Both test came back clear! Thank you God!

They will perform a spinal tap this evening and will have final results on this sometime tomorrow. Her white blood count is slightly elevated, they are leaning towards some type of viral infection at this point. Which will have to run its course. Please pray for this procedure to be without complications.

Please continue to pray for my mom, when I spoke with her this afternoon she assured me that everything was going to be ok. Pray that her headaches will ease and that she will get a good nights sleep tonight. Please pray for Dad and Michele, that they will feel God's peace, it is very scary to see a loved one in the shape that Mom must have been last night. Please pray for safe travel for Uncle Wayne & Aunt Linda who have been traveling and should arrive tomorrow at noon. Please pray for the doctors as they continue to rule out possibilities, we are grateful that the MRI was clear. Please pray for me too - it is hard being so far away.

Our desire and Mom's desire is that God would be glorified through it all. We praise God for prayers that have already been answered!

Thank you again for all your prayers!
Love,
Teresa

Please Pray Urgently for Donna, Lloyd and the Girls!

2006-09-14T18:13:00.000-07:00

Blog Under Construction-- Some awesome news!

2006-09-13T22:05:00.000-07:00

Hello Family and Friends,

I wish Beth Rudy was here... instead of Pa.... so I could hug on her neck. My blog appeared to have lost most of the posting for a while. Beth is the special person that helped me make my blog May 18th, when I learned I had cancer..... and she was able to retrieve it last night! Thanks Beth....again a blessing for me!

Awesome news.....MY OTHER HALF (TWIN SISTER) Linda and her hubby Wayne are heading their van west to the mountains this Sat. to be her for my surgery Tues. 19th!!! A HUGE BLESSING!! Linda wanted to get here so I can give her a refresher course Monday in helping Lloyd run the resort!! Michele was planning on coming up to help for the week....but having Linda here is so great. Michele has her hands full with, 2 kids,, home and job to take care of. Michele will be available if I need her when Linda and Wayne leave. God is sooo good!! Plus this is not nearly as major a surgery as before. About 3 hrs and I will get to come home the same day.

I've struggled to write since the last entry Aug. 29. I know many of you great people are daily looking at the blog. You must have thought I fell off the mountain!!! I've wanted so bad to have good news about my journey to share before I wrote....but the past 2 weeks have been really, really hard. I'm so thankful that we made the decision to take out the last "fill up"...it has helped....but still I struggle with the pain...feels like the expanders are cutting into my flesh.

The Zoloft that I was so hoping would help.... made me nauseau, headache and slight trembles....cut it in half after a week... and the side effects left....but at the same time I was struggling to go from 2 Percocets a day.... down to one....so I saw NO relief in the pain level...it went up! I made it 4 days with just 1 pain pill and had trouble even working....so back on 2 now. I have 2 a day left to get me to surgery. The 12 - 16 Ibuprofen a day caught up with my stomach last week so have changed to Tylenol....which doesn't work as well...but the stomach pain is better! TYL (thank you Lord). I just feel like a broken record...but want this to be a factual journey. Praying I won't need to be refered to a pain Dr. after surgery....I'm counting on doing LOTS better when I get the expanders out. I under stand the implants are much softer and more natural!!

I do know God as a plan and a purpose for this pain. Perhaps it's not for me to know this side of heaven what it is....but I've found peace in my heart that He does know. I love to dwell on Psalm 139....the whole chapter......but .especially verse16...."All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be"!! HE KNOW EACH OF OUR DAYS!!

My prayer for several years each morning before my feet hit the floor has been..."I don't know what you have in store for me today Lord, but use me for your glory." It has helped me focus on the events and people He puts in my life each day....thinking God put it/them here today for His reason. Please, Please Please ....I'm sharing this not because I'm trying to say I'm great or perfect...I'M NOT!!!! I'm just a humble servant who wants to be His hands and feet to others.

I feel when He touched my body and gave me an instant healing from a major ilness in 1977.....He allowed me to live for the purpose of a ministy to help others suffering with illness. (If you would like to know that incredible miracle....just leave a note on the blog... and I'll send it to you). This journey will surley give me a broader understanding of suffering. I pray I don't ever loose an opportunity to share about God's grace and mercy.

Do I fail??? YES..YES...YES....every day and I'm broken hearted when I do.......do I see each opportunity He puts in front of me? NO... and I'm so sad when the opportunity walks away without me opening my mouth.........praying for His forgiveness.
I've been praying for many weeks that instead of taking the pain away....just give me strenght to bear it this day. I don't want for anything in this world to miss what God will use this journey for. I just pray the Master Scluptor will mold me and use me as He sees fit.

One of my very favorite songs is the "Servants Prayer...Use me, Lord" by Randy Whittern.
I was in a Sunday service last year at the YMCA when Randy sang it! I've never had a song effect me so much....with tears streaming down my face....I said..."Lord this is my "heart's words and desire to be your servant"!! It's playing now as I write...I keep it on repeat...almost have it worn through!!

I pray that each of you reading this will continue to see the need around you where God can use your help!! Many of you are awesome example that have inspired me!!! There are so many people who are hurting with broken hearts, illnesses or many other needs that we meet each day....and YOU are the one that is ministering to them. God Bless You!!

I'm just over whelmed by your priceless gift of prayers for us. All the cards, e.mails and gifts for me and my family and beyond measure. I hope that some day....in some way....God allows me to repay you.

When your praying for us, I would ask for you to include:

1. Safe journey for Linda and Wayne as they drive here Sat. and Sunday from Cape Girardeau, Mo..
2. That God would give wisdom, focus and skilled hands to Dr. Baker as he does my surgery Tues. Sept. 19th. It's scheduled for 10:15 a.m. I truly feel God has given Dr. Baker a special gift.
3. That God would give a special peace to Lloyd , our daughters, Teresa & Michele along with the rest of our family as they wait for the surgery to be done.
4. And extra strength for Lloyd. He has been so awesome through this journey. I truly know his pain is as much as mine. It's hard to see your life mate suffer. He's been such an encourager, patient and loving partner....truly one of my greatest blessings.

It's getting late and bed is calling me....but I want to close with another verse from Psalm 139...verse 8-10....If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand wuill guide me, your right hand will hold me fast!!!.....and so dear ones....I'm off to sleep knowing He is holding me fast!!

Blessing for each of you,
Donna

P.S. please excuse the spelling....the ABC won't check tonight.....guess it's tired also!

A reverse in the journey today!

2006-08-29T18:49:00.000-07:00

Dear Ones,

I need to share with you that I've learned a hard lesson and God has brought me to my knees!! I've been walking through the "fire" since I wrote last week. Aug. 24th....even after a week since my last fill up (Aug. 17th). I have been cutting back to 2 pain pills a day, 12 Ibuprofen and a sleeping pill.... and I'm in pain! It's like a knife cutting under my arm. The expander feels like it it's rubbing me raw. So Dr. Baker had me come in today to do a "reverse" by TAKING OUT 50 cc's out of each side today to relieve the pressure. Never would have thought I'd be in reverse!

I'm humbled and embarrassed to admit my thoughts about anti-depressants and people who took them!! God's teaching me a lesson to NEVER judge anyone needing antidepression meds. I pray I've learned this lesson and can some how help others who might have chronic pain.

Until Sunday I had never admitted the possiblilty I could be depressed... and even had trouble getting my mind around it that I was depressed! Is that foolish pride or what? Lord forgive me!!

Two things happened to help me realize I needed help. First, my sister Linda had a friend in St. Louis who went through this 20 yrs ago. For several weeks Linda had been encouraging me to talk to Joni. Oh my goodness....I wish I had sooner. While taking with Joni....I heard the words..."the best thing that helped me with the pain was an antidepressant"!!

Then Sunday evening, I dropped an e.mail to Dr. Mindy Haws ....a sweet family friend who is a plastic surgeon in Nashville. She e.mailed me back yesterday morning. I asked her if she thought (I was going to ask my plastic Dr. here in Denver today when I went in) an antidepressant might help and explain I really didn't like the idea of taking them. Her comment did help me look at it differently. She said...you know you never expected God to alleviate your pain , ( I do know He could) with out the help of medication. We all give lip service to depression/anxiety being a medical or physiological problem yet when it comes time for help, it's typical to say "Not me, I don't need that." The same person who would never turn down insulin if they were a diabetic or pain pills, if they hurt, will fight medications for physchologial imbalance. She said....being a positive thinking person has nothing to do with what your brain levels of serotonin are or how they are affected by a general anesthetic, bilateral mastecomies, and 2 months of constant pain and narcotic use. So today Dr. Baker gave me a prescription for Zoloft. Thanks Mindy for helping me to understand that!

Next time you are talking with God about us... please pray:
1.That the Zoloft can help with the pain.
2. That I don't have to see a pain Dr...... Dr. Baker want's me to see one if I can't make it on the Percocet I have now.....have enough for 16 days at 2 per day.
3.That the next 21 days will fly by until my surgery.

It's hard to find better words to express to you how much each and everyone of you mean to us....the prayers, e.mails, cards and gifts help make life bearable.

I'm so blessed to have such an AWESOME LIFE MATE! Lloyd came in with roses for me this evening. This has been such a hard summer for him also....please keep whispering his name to God in your prayers too!!

Haley, our 8 year old granddaughter brought me some sweet gifts the other day....bought with her own money :} The sweetest one was a small ceramic bunny, that she had made and painted this summer! She had printed on her lined piece of paper and taped it to the bunny....ANGELS ARE WATCHING OVER YOU! That's what I always pray with them when they spend the night and are ready for bed. My heart was hugged by her sweet gift AND ESPECIALLY THE NOTE.... something that I will treasure forever!!What a blessing she is!

I have so missed being in the Lord's house on Sundays. Sunday my devotional was so special....a day I was really struggling...It was intitled "IS He Listening?" A part of it said:
When we pray, we may not see how God is working or understand how He will bring good though it all. So we have to trust Him. We relinquish our rights and let God do what is best.
We must leave the unknowable to the all-knowing One. He is listening and working things our His way! Not ours to know the reason why...Unanswered is our prayer....But ours to wait for God's own time....To lift the cross we bear.....When we bend our knees to pray....God bends His ear to listen....Dave Branon!!

I'm trusting God to use my life in the way He knows best!!

Trusting Him,
Donna

We have found the STOP sign on this Journey!!

2006-08-22T16:25:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone,

I have to admit that other than May 18th. the day I learned I had cancer....I have had the worst days on this journey since Thursday...my last fill up ...until yesterday.

I have always thought of my self as a positive, goal setter, hard worker and "Katie bar the door" type person, that with God's help I could tackle any mountain!! I hate to admit it but this mountain has been more than hard to climb! I just love how God continues to put people in my life and His hugs and gudiance I find so often in His word and devotional!! A couple of days ago in the devotional it said....God may send you a load to carry ...But never an overload!!! What sweet assurance that He is with me!!

I have felt there must be something wrong with me because, from 2 special friends in the medical field......I was told that their patients only needed a Tynold for the pain after the "fill-ups". I thought I had a high pain tolerance......now thinking I must have lost it along the way!! On the Aug. 3rd "fill up" I was taking 5 Percocets per day. I was encourage to reduce the amount. With huge pain the next 2 weeks I had cut it back to 3 a day. Something must be wrong with this picture......my pain level was not a 'headache' type pain! I'm sure a big part of the problem was not resting enough.....but sometimes you just have to work!

When I went in Thur. 17th, my Dr. said he would only write a prescription for 2 Percocets a day...that I should 'tough it out". I know where his heart was....but I knew where the pain was and I was read to find some one to break into his office and steal a prescription pad!!! The thought didn't last too long!! The next 3 days were awful. I felt like I had been kicked in the stomach physically and mentally. Thankfully Michele and Derek came up to help Lloyd at the resort so I could rest. They even had friends that were visiting them for the week-end, that came with them. They jumped in and do all kinds of things.

I was suppose to have 3 more fill-ups after last Thursday.....with them being 2 weeks apart ...then wait for a month before the next surgery.....my body was yelling STOP.....I can't stand the thought or pain of any more fill-ups! My sister Linda, along with other family members were saying..... stop! Linda's comment was...."Surely everyone can tell you are a girl by now"!! Won't be any "Dollies" here....(never planned on it)....but hopefully sis....they will know I'm a girl!! Tee Hee!

So........ I called the Dr. yesterday morning and told him I was done. I explained how horrible the pain was while "toughing it out". He agreed that now was a good time to stop!! He has agreeded to work with me with a few more pills so I can get to the end! I'm scheduled Sept. 19th to take these "bear traps" off my chest and put the implants in!! That will be the second time in my life that I'm looking forward to surgery!!! (The other was the day of surgery to find out if the cancer was contained!! Thank you Lord that it was.

I'm still struggling with only 3 pills a day.....but mentally knowing I don't have to endure more 'fill-ups".....I have more strength just knowing there is a light at the end of this tunnel!! Michele is coming tomorrow to "catch me up" in the office'!! I'm doing the minimum each day....she is such a blessing.

Other good news.....if all goes well....we can still spend a few days back in Il. with family and friends before we head to Tx.

Well it's getting late...almost 9...my bed is calling for me!! Want to share with you a scripture verse God had waiting for me today. It's from a book called...Joy for a Woman's Soul....Promises to Refresh Your Spirit. (indeed it does)!! It is a gift from special friends Ken and Carol Smith and Wanda who take care of the Rockmount Cottages just up the street from us!! You will see the scripture below! By the way....if we are full here at Idlewilde....Rockmount is a great place to stay on the Big Thompson River!! :}

Praying angels around each of you tonight and in the days ahead!!

Loving Him and each of you,
Donna

I will refine them like silver and test them like gold. The will call on my name and I will answer them; I will say, "They are my people," and they will say, "The LORD IS OUR GOD"!!

Always look for the positive!!

2006-08-16T14:14:00.000-07:00

Just needed to share this with you. My sister Linda called me yesterday morning. I don't want to make light of the event.....but she said the TV has just told the story of a woman in middle east in the war whose life was saved because her implants kept her from being killed from the shrapnel!!! Wow...never thought of having body armor!!

tomorrow (17th) is another fill up day...thanks for your continued prayers. God must be hearing our names often.

My sweet friend Elizabeth Stone sent a note and I loved the verse below that she included:

I Corinthians 1:9 (Amplified Bible) "God is faithful---reliable, trustworthy and (therefore) ever true to His promise, and He can be depeneded on: by Him you were called into companionship and participation with His Son, Jesus Christ our Lord." ...thanks Elizabeth for the reminder!!

Blessing for you dear ones,
Donna

God is hitting me over the head!!

2006-08-14T18:27:00.000-07:00

Hello dear ones,

I couldn't believe my devotional today..."Come with me by yourselves to a quiet place and get some rest." Mark 6:31......Is that a message for me or what???? How could I not see some plans need to change!!

After discussion with hubby.....we have made some different plans.....We may have to stay here a couple or 3 weeks after we close (Oct 15). I don't have the option for complete rest...but will take longer in 'blowing them up" and then have to wait for 3 or 4 weeks after the last "blow up" to do the surgery.... and possibly after we close... to remove the expanders and put in the "new boobs"!!

One sad thing....we probably won't get to come to IL. for our fall visit.....we will head to Tx. from here. We have a family trip Nov. 11th for a week in condos near Cancun with our daughters, their hubbys and 4 special grandkid!! This puppy is going to really rest then.....find a chair under a palm tree and crash!!

We might possibly make a trip home some time later in Nov. to visit family. For you that don't know us and just found my blog....we are owner/managers (with our daughter Michele and hubby Derek), of Idlewilde By the River in Estes Park, Co. (www.idlewilde.net). We are originally from Il. and have a home there... where we try to spend a month before we open and a month after we close the resort. Then we are snow birds and head to Sun City in Georgetown, Tx. for the winter. We move 4 times a year....keeps life exciting!!

On the lighter side....the one positive thing I'm looking for.....when I'm 105 yrs of age....I'll be wishing I could see the expression on the undertakers face when he sees these 2 perky boobs. Tee Hee!! Searching for as much positive as I can!!!

Of course....really I want to say...I'M BLESSED!! They caught it early and were able to get all the cancer and I don't have to have radiation or chemo. GIRLS...IF YOU ARE 40 YRS YOUNG...BE SURE TO DO YOUR MAMMOGRAMS! NEVER. NEVER. MISS DOING THAT!! MINE WAS NOT A LUMP OR MASS AND I WOULD NEVER HAVE FOUND IT WITH OUT THE MAMMOGRAMS!!!

Keep whispering in God's ear... Lloyd's and my name.....I look forward to the day when the prayers won't be necessary!! Your prayers are holding us up through these days!!

Hope great and awesome things are happening in your journey!!

Blessings for you dear ones,
Donna

Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine! Isaiah 43:1
(What a sweet promise....claim it!!!)

Resting in God's Promises

2006-08-10T09:06:00.000-07:00

Good Morning Dear Ones,

I cancelled my appointment today for the next "fill up"! I'm reminded by severval of my friends that are in the medical fields to "LISTEN TO YOUR BODY"!! Well I'm taking their advice and waiting until the 17th for the next 'fill up" because the body is yelling "Yikes"!!

This is suppose to be a true story of my journey....and I hate to admit it....but this has been much more of a challenge than I could have every dreamed. I've now realized I will have pain until this journey is complete! I'm thankful to know that some gals don't have this much pain. So gals..if you reading this journal and about to go through the same surgery....take heart!! I must confess that there are 2 main reasons for so much pain. We have a deadline to complete this journey by Oct. 15 when we close the resort and leave Co....plus I'm trying to keep up with the office work and not resting enough.....but sometimes there aren't other options. It was such a blessing that Michele was here yesterday and coming back today and Sat. It's a relief to be caught up again!!

When I get discouraged....God put's dear people in my life, special songs or awesome devotional...like the one that I read today. It's written by Joni Eareckson Tada:

His Eye Is On The Sparrow

Matthew 10:26-33

"Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from the will of your Father."

English sparrows. They're worth barely a penny (Jesus said so). Yet of the world's nine thousand bird species, the Master singled out the least-noticed and most insignificant of birds to make a point.

If God takes time to keep tabs on every sparrow...who it is, where it's going, whether its needs are being met...then surely he keeps special tabs on you. Intimately. Personally. And with every detail in mind.

The Bible may point to eagles to underscore courage and power, and it may talk about doves as symbols of peace and contentment. But God's Word reserves sparrows to teach a lesson about trust! Just as God tenderly cares for a tiny bird, even making note of when it is harmed, or when it falls to the gournd, he gently reminds you that he is worthy of your greatest trust, your deepest confidence.

Dear ones....I know each and every one of you who are reading this note, has hearts that are hurting, or pain of illness, or family challenges... or some thing that is hard to carry. We all can know that God sees and knows are heart aches and our tears. Make a plan today to see all the "everyday" blessings God is sending your way! I'm watching also ....and may times my mouth drops open and I just simply think....."only God"!!!!

My prayer request would be for Lloyd....He's carrying so much of the load here. He sleep 12 hrs last night...Exhausted. I know it's horrible for him to see me in such pain and not able to change it. He's such a take charge person and always jumps at a chance to "fix thing"...there just isn't an instant fix for me! He's such a sweetheart!! I'm so blessed to hav him as my life mate!

Please continue the prayers for wisdom for me with the drugs....I have dropped 2 percocets these last few days...just using 3 to make it through and lots of Ibuprofen.

Need to sign off and get busy...the day holds much!!

Joyfully His,

Donna

Phil. 4:19 Remember you are not left alone. You will have the help you need. "My God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus"!! (AWESOME)!!

1/2 fill up yesterday

2006-08-04T18:57:00.000-07:00

Dear Special Loved Ones,

I didn't write yesterday because I was hoping to feel bette before I sent a note today.

Please continue the prayers.....I'm struggling with the pain and trying to scale back on the pergocet and replace it with muscel relaxer.....huge trouble getting the pain manageable. Pray for wisdom for me and to know which advice I'm receiving is best for me!

Love ya,
Donna

A 1/2 Fill up Yesterday

2006-07-28T13:41:00.000-07:00

Hello loved ones,

Lloyd took me down to see Dr. Baker yesterday. We did a 1/2 fill up----50 ccs instead of the 100. I'm hanging in there....with new pain meds...Lortab and ice bag.

This is a long journey....but to you gals that might be reading this and having chemo or radiation....my heart hurts for you and my prayers go with you!! I keep reminding myself that I'm blessed not having to endure that along with reconstruction.

A dear guest Phyllis Heideman from Neb. sent me this note that Rick Waren sent about his wife's cancer....although I'd read it before...it was a great reminder for me to focus on praise to our Lord in thanksgiving for His grace and mercy. Maybe it will also help you through a tough day. Here it is....Thanks Phyllis:

Subject: A True Purpose Driven Life
(Rick Warren, author of "A Purpose driven life") You will enjoy the new insights that Rick Warren has with his wife now having cancer and him having "wealth" from the book sales. This is an absolutely incredible short interview with Rick Warren, "Purpose Driven Life" author, and pastor of Saddleback Church in California. In the interview by Paul Bradshaw with Rick Warren, Rick said: People ask me, What is the purpose of life? And I respond: In a nutshell, life is preparation for eternity. We were made to last forever, and God wants us to be with Him in Heaven. One day my heart is going to stop, and that will be the end of my body--but not the end of me. I may live 60 to 100 years on earth, but I am going to spend trillions years in eternity. This is the warm-up act - the dress rehearsal of God wants us to practice on ear th what we will do forever in eternity. We were made by God and for God, and until you figure that out, life isn't going to make sense. Life is a series of problems: Either you are in one now, you're just coming out of one, or you're getting ready to go into another one. The reason for this is that God is more interested in your character than your comfort. God is more interested in making your life holy than He is in making your life happy. We can be reasonably happy here on earth, but that's not the goal of life. The goal is to grow in character, in Christ likeness. This past year has been the greatest year of my life but also the toughest, with my wife, Kay, getting cancer. I used to think that life was hills and valleys - you go through a dark time, then you go to the mountaintop, back and forth. I don't believe >that anymore. Rather than life being hills and valleys, I believe that it' s kind of like two rails on a railroad track, and at all times you have something good and something bad in your life. No matter how good things are in your life, there is always something bad that needs to be worked on. And no matter how bad things are in your life, there is always something good for which you can thank God. You can focus on your purposes, or you can focus on your problems. If you focus on your problems, you're going into self-centeredness, "which is my problem, my issues, my pain." But one of the easiest ways to get rid of pain is to get your focus off yourself and onto God and others. We discovered quickly that in spite of the prayers of hundreds of thousands of people, God was not going to heal Kay or make it easy for her. It has been very difficult for her, and yet God has strengthened her character, given her a ministry of helping other people, given her a testimony, drawn her <>closer to Him and to people. You have to learn to deal with both the good and the bad of life. Actually, sometimes learning to deal with the good is harder. For instance, this past year, all of a sudden, when the book sold 15 million copies, it made me instantly very wealthy. It also brought a lot of notoriety that I had never had to deal with before. I don't think God gives you money or notoriety for your own ego >or for you to live a life of ease. So I began to ask God what He wanted me to do with this money, notoriety and influence. He gave me two different passages that helped me decide what to do, II Corinthians 9 and Psalm 72. First, in spite of all the money coming in, we would not change our lifestyle one bit. We made no major purchases. Second, about midway through last year, I stopped taking a salary from the church. Third, we set up foundations to fund an initiative we call Th e Peac e Plan to plant churches, equip leaders, assist the poor, care for the sick, and educate the next generation. Fourth, I added up all that the church had paid me in the 24 years since I started the church, and I gave it all back. It was liberating to be able to serve God for free. We need to ask ourselves: Am I going to live for possessions? Popularity? Am I going to be driven by pressures? Guilt? Bitterness? Materialism? Or am I going to be driven by God's purposes (for my life)? When I get up in the morning, I sit on the side of my bed and say, God, if I don't get anything else done today, I want to know You more and love You better. God didn't put me on earth just to fulfill a to-do list. He's more interested in what I am than what I do. That's why we're called human beings, not human doings. Happy moments, PRAISE GOD. Difficult moments, SEEK GOD. Quiet moments, WORSHIP GOD. Pain ful mo ments, TRUST GOD. Every moment, THANK GOD.

So as you can see.....I'M TRUSTING AND THANKING GOD as Rick suggests.

Again....thanks for the prayers for me and my family!!

He is Able,
Donna

Our God is Faithful!!

2006-07-19T12:13:00.000-07:00

Dear Family & Friends,

I just want to share and "OH WOW" moment that I just realized a few minutes ago!! On Monday God sent THREE people into my life when I really needed it!! I've really been struggling with pain since the last 'fill-up' last Thursday.

1st person: Jo Porter, is a really special friend from K.C., who works part time for a plastic surgeon. She called me because she said God had placed me on her mind! I'm so glad she called. She came unglued ( as only Jo can do)...when I told her I was having 100 ccs put in once a week! She said her Dr. did 50 ccs every 2 or 3 weeks....and his patients never needed pain meds other than tynold!!! I'm on Oxycod every 4 hrs plus sleeping med!! Bless her heart...Jo called me back a half hour later with a SCHEDULE of how we could still get this all done before we leave Colorado Oct. 15th and do the 50 ccs every other week!! I know because we had told Dr. Baker of our time line... he was just trying to meet that goal. When I called Dr. Baker....he agreeded it was a good idea to slow down!!

Monday, I called Angie Propst in Illinois ,who is ONE SPECIAL support friend! Angie went through the same thing last Aug. Because she did the once a week and 100 cc, I thought that was normal!! She gave me a 'distant hug' and prayed with me....what a blessing.

2nd. Barry, our oncologist friend e.mailed me. He had been to dinner with Michele and Derek and had asked about me. Michele had told him of my pain. He suggested that if I hadn't already, I might want to add anti-inflammatories...such as Motrin or Aleve that might help with the swelling and pain. Barry also assured me that I wouldn't get hooked on the other pain meds and also explained it was normal that I had to keep increasing the OxyCod as time went on to get the same pain relief level!!

3rd. Foster Propst...Angie's husband who is a pharmacist called us. Foster also suggested the anit-inflammatories and not to worry about getting hooked!!

Is our God awesome or what??? 3 people ....all on a day that was so difficult!!

I want you to know the pain is BETTER the past 2 days. Thanks Foster and Barry for your suggestion. Thanks Jo... my emotional level is better because I'm not facing another fill-up tomorrow! Thank you Lord!!

As always....I can't tell you how much your love, concern and prayers mean to us!!!

Trusting our Faithful God,
Donna

Father, Continue to bring me along so that I can also rejoice in my sufferings because I can know that suffering produces perserverance. (Romans 5:3)

Passed the 2nd Mile Marker Today

2006-07-13T16:34:00.000-07:00

Hello Dear Family and Friends,

What a blessing it has been to have Teresa and her family here with us this week. We will really miss them when they head back toward Texas tomorrow. Please pray for travel blessings for them. It was also great to have Michele helping last week with the office and guest!

Today, Teresa took me down the mountain for the second "blow-up"....5 or 6 more and we are DONE! I wish I could say I'm doing great.....AND I TRULY AM DOING GREAT....but the pain is really becoming a weary event in my every day! I guess I thought when the surgery was over that was the worst part....it wasn't.

I'm blessed to have Angie Propst, a friend in Il. who had the same surgery and reconstruction last Aug. I understand more now, why support groups are so important. Angie encouraged me Tuesday to take more pain pills. I got off the phone and headed for the bottle....pain pill bottle I mean!!! Don't understand why I think I should take as little as possible! The pain was really wearing me out!

Last week also I asked the Dr. for a sleeping pill prescription. I had a heart attack to see it was $134 for 40 pills. But the next morning I told Lloyd that was the best $134 dollars I had every spent and I even had 39 more pills to go!!

I'm praising the Lord that my twin sister Linda got back a GOOD report on her monogram!!! The place she has her's done has digital....which I understand is the best! Thank you Lord for the report and also knowing they will be looking extra carefully each 6 months that they now want her to have!!

Gotta share something else right quick! Teresa brought a book with her called "90 Minutes in Heaven" by Don Piper. If you haven't read it, I REALLY encourage you to run out and get it.! The first several chapters are about what heaven will be like! Actually, I'm ALMOST ready to pack my bags!! The rest was about his recovery. It couldn't have been better timing for me to read it! I'm sure my pain is like a splinter compared to what he went through.

I can't close without thank you all for the prayers, e.mails and cards you are sending each day. We are blessed!

A Hug From Him,
Donna

Psalm 34:1-4 I will extol the Lord at all times;
his praise will always be on my lips.
My soul will boast in the Lord;
let the afflicted hear and rejoice.
Glorify the Lord with me;
let us exalt his name together.
I sought the Lord, and he answered me;
he delivered me from all my fears!!

A New Experience on the Journey

2006-07-06T18:03:00.000-07:00

Hello Loved One,

Will make this short tonight....heading to bed!

My hubby was my rock as he held my hand today for the first "blow up". It wasn't bad once the lidocane (sp) took effect. It's amazing that the Dr. used a magnet to find the opening into the expander to put the saline solution in without making a hole in the expander.....isn't modern medicine amazing!!

The expander was placed UNDER THE CHEST MUSCLE....so I'm feeling really TIGHT tonight....but guess that's the goal to expand that muscle. Guess it's easier than what all those folks do in the gym to get muscles!! Tee Hee! Well... we have the start of 2 small mounds...100 cc in each side today!! Will do this once a week now for another 6 or 7 weeks!!

Prayer request tonight would be for both my sisters, Linda and Jeanette and husbands as they drive home tomorrow to Cape Girardeau, Mo. and Little Rock, Ar. Also for our daughter Teresa and her family as they leave in the morning at 3:00 a.m. to come here for a week's vacation. Also for Lloyd....who has already and will continue to do such an awesome job here at the resort to meet the needs of the guests each day. He's such an awesome soul mate to me.....truly one of my greatest blessings! And then that I can get some sleep tonight and function in the office taking these pain pills. Pray I don't double book....one of my greatest fears. I think we have maybe a total of 4 spots...all one nights... in separate cabins during the next 6 weeks! We are sooooo blessed.

He is able,
Donna
Even to old age and gray hairs I am he, I am he who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you. Isaiah 46:4 (Oh dear ones....what an awesome promise that we can each claim as a child of God.)

Oh my...gray hairs...only He would know :}!!

Thank You Lord For the Freedoms We All Have in America

2006-07-04T20:05:00.000-07:00

Hello Family and Friends,

I can't believe it's almost a week since I posted to the blog!

I have to admit it seems like a long one with some frustrations for me! I just HATE to take pain pills.....yes I know nurse Cathy Mallow....said your body heals faster when you aren't in pain!!
So I keep taking them!! I have been able to back off the last couple of days with 1/2 pill at 10 a.m. and the other half at 4 p.m. and a whole one when I go to bed. So I know I'm gaining on them!! Thursday morning a special friend, Juanice Ward, will take me down the mountain for my first session of "blowing them up"!! Lloyd says he could use a compressor lot faster than the next 6 wks. will take....RIGHT!!.....NO....WRONG!! Oh my!!

It has been so awesome to have Michele, our daughter, to come up this week and help with the office work....another great blessing! I was impressed that her husband Derek wanted to learn how to make invoices in the software! But DEREK gets a BIG STAR for effort!! The day of my surgery he got in the software and made a "sort of'" invoice for a walk in guest!!! Way to go Derek!.

Well today is special because we celebrate our freedom! So many men and women have sacrificed their lives for what we have today. Their families were left with out fathers, mothers,sisters,brother, uncles, aunts and cousins....they were never the same family again! For that I give them honor and thanks...which doesn't really seem enough.
Yesterday in the mail we received a bumper sticker from Dr. James Kennedy's Coral Ridge Ministry in Ft. Lauderdale, Fl. The sticker says..."LET THEM PRAY". We were appalled to hear that the chaplains in the military are not allowed to pray..."in Jesus name"!! I think the 2 worst words that was ever introduced into the English language is "political correct"...what a sad day for our country when that happened.

Well didn't mean to get on the 'soap box'....yet maybe I did!! Find a veteran today or tomorrow and give them a hug!!

I continue to be amazed at all the e.mails and cards that are still coming every day!! I've certainly learned that my feeble one card sent to a friend during an illness is lacking....when I'm receiving 2, 3 and even 4 from the same person.... you my special friends!! It's such a pure joy to know each of you. Praying God's blessings are falling on each of you too!
I've had many of you mention about having trouble sending e.mails to us here in the blog. If you do...just send them to me at donnaclaypool.earthlink.net. Sorry about that!

God Bless America and Each of You,
Donna

"Blessed is the nation whose God is the Lord." Psalm 33:12

Yeah..I Can Still Drive!!

2006-06-28T19:08:00.000-07:00

Hello Prayer Warriors,

5:30 this morning found Linda and I up and heading down the mountain at 6:15 to see Dr. Baker and Dr. Young. First appointment was at 9....thought we might have lots of rush hour traffic...arrived there at 8.a.m ! A whole hour to kill in the cafeteria eating donuts and tea....thought we deserved that!! Tee Hee!

Good News......both Dr.s were impressed with me!! I should get a gold star!! They were impressed how well I was feeling, range of motion and how well the inscisions were healing! Dr. Baker took off the tape and I can now start using Vit. E oil on the inscision to help scaring and healing!! Sure not ready for a beauty contest....but really pleased that it didn't look as bad as I had thought! Thanks You Lord! I go back July 6th to start blowing them up!! Watch out Dolly....here I come.....JUST TEASING!!!

Linda was scheduled for a 5 p.m. flight and we were back to Longmont so early... she caught the shuttle to the airport and is now with her family getting ready for vacation in, I think it's Tyler. Tx., in a a condo this Fri. YOU CAN ONLY IMAGINE WHAT A BLESSING IT WAS FOR BOTH OF US TO SHARE THESE PAST TWO WEEKS. I even found out I could drive from Longmont up the mountain to Estes Park...with no trouble! My guardian angels was shooooing everyone out of my path! :} Thank you again Lord!

Thanks for the prayers for my other sister Jeanette's husband Don. God was hearing all your prayers and he's home and looking forward to driving from Little Rock, Ar. with the rest of the family for the reunion in Tx!!

It's gushing blessings all over our family. His mercies are indeed, new each morning. Can't wait to see what He has planned tomorrow!

Hugs and Prayers,
Donna
"Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayers." Romans 12:12

A new companion for the next 5 years on my journey!

2006-06-27T08:35:00.000-07:00

Good Morning Special Family & Friends,

I had planned to write last night....but was to exhausted when we got back from seeing the Dr.

I was "loaded for bear" when we went to see Dr. Sedlacek..my new oncologist. I was sure I wasn't going to put and "meds." in my body....unless he could show me a good enough reason.

Well he was a heck of a 'salesman'! First 'hole' in my thinking was it turned out to be stage 1 instead of 0. I had read lots on Tamoxifen and was sure I didn't want it....can cause ovarian cancer and blood clots. Well...Dr. Sedlacek recommended Arimidex which doesn't have those side effects. Thank the Lord!! So for the next 5 years my daily compaion will be this drug!!

Even though it had gone to stage 1 it was a tiny spot and I won't have to have chemo or radiation!! I am so blessed.

I would like for you all to whisper a prayer for my brother-by-love ..Don Morgan. He had been having chest pain over the week-end. They admitted him to the hospital yesterday and was doing a chemical stress test this morning. I pray they won't find anything. Jeanette and Don and Linda, Wayne (both my sisters) and their families and grandkids...plus Teresa and her family were checking into a condo in Tx. this Friday. Praying their time together will happen.

Thanks for your continued prayers and love,
Donna
How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And this is what we are! 1 John 3:1 (We are all blessed!!)

A Smoother Ride on the Journey Today

2006-06-24T17:37:00.000-07:00

Hello Friends and Family,

Just had to let you know blessings continue to rain down on us. Teresa just called and she arrived back in Tx. There were 3 guys waiting to welcome her home! Having here the past 10 days has been such a blessing!!

Sharon Sailsman, a special friend, ask a question....did they start constructive surgery. Guess I didn't make that clear in any of the previous e.mails. Yes they put the expanders in and even 100 cc's to start "blowing them up" process!! So I'm back in a "training bra"!! Tee Hee! Each week I'll go back to blow them up more!! The Dr. said it's kind of like braces...they just get comfortable and you tighten them up again!! Well...this too will past!!

I also had to share a letter with you from Barry, (Michele and Derek's AND NOW OUR'S) SPECIAL FRIEND. I forwarded my pathology report to Barry, who is an oncologist, and asked him to take a look the report....which he did. Another blessing....Barry knows the oncologist that I will see in Denver that works with the group of surgeons there!!

I'm doing MUCH, MUCH better since the Dr. gave me meds. for nausea that I take when I take my pain pill....I just THOUGHT Tynold could hold the pain in check....not yet ...but soon I hope. I haven't had temp. yet tonight. It was 101.1 on Thur. and 100 last night. I keep puffing on my machine to increase my lung capacity and walking and eating healty....well some of the time!!

Hope you week-end is special....hug the folks in your life lots each day!

Now here's Barry's note:

Sent: Saturday, June 24, 2006 1:24 AM
Subject: Re: Donna's Path Report.
Hi Donna,
I read through your path report. You are correct that it is an excellent report with an expectation of a cure in the 93-95% range. You can increase those numbers a few more percentage points by taking Tamoxifen or Arimidex. You have Stage I (pT1a, pN0(i-), M0) Grade II infiltrating ductal carcinoma of the right breast which is ER+, PR-, and Her2neu amplification undetermined (the focus of invasive disease was so small that it could not be reliably tested). You have indications to consider adjuvant hormonal treatment for 5 years, but nothing else. You should do great!

Dr. Sedlacek is a great doctor. Please tell him I said hello! He will help you decide if Tamoxifen or Arimidex might be best for you. I think you will like him. If you have questions about anything, please feel free to ask.

Congratulations on a great report. You definitely made the right decision having the mastectomy. In addition to the invasive focus, there were also separate areas of DCIS. You would not have been a good candidate for breast conservation.

Have a good weekend,
Barry

Isn't that a blessing to get such a great report!

Joyfully His,
Donna
Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteious fall. Psalm 55:22

Mom Needs Extra Prayers and Great News from the Doctor Today!

2006-06-22T17:32:00.000-07:00

Mom had such a good day yesterday that we were surprised about how rough she is feeling today. She had to go back on her pain medicine late yesterday which has caused a lot of nausea. Today Aunt Linda had to take her to the doctor in Denver, Mom does not do well coming out of the mountains anyway (car sick) add pain medicine to the picture which makes her nauseated and you have a rough day. She is also running a fever right now.

The great news is that she got the final pathology report today and the cancer had not spread into the lymphnodes!! She will meet with an oncologist next week to see if any preventive medicine will be needed.

So our Faithful Prayer Warriors we are calling on you again! Praise God for the protection of her lymphnodes from cancer and pray for her nausea to subside, her appetite to return, her fever to reduce and that an infection is not setting in.

Thank you for your continued prayers, each of you are a blessing to us!
Teresa

He Maketh Me To Lie Down In Green Pastures, By the Big Thompson River

2006-06-20T18:50:00.000-07:00

My Dear Prayer Warriors,

I just had to get on here to personally thank you for all your prayers for me and my family. It is soooooo great to be home and away from the hospital. I am doing great! THANK YOU LORD!! I'm so thankful I'm off pain pills since morning and Tylenol is keeping the pain away...so blessed!!
It's hard to find better and more meaning full words than "Thank You"...the meals, call, cards, and e.mails are so beautifully written with such warmth and encouragement.

The other reason I wanted to share with you was what happened when I opened my devotional this morning and saw the title: Heal Me!! It's written by Joni Eareckson Tada:

Heal Me

Read Jeremiah 17:12-18

"Heal me, O Lord, and I will be healed; save me and I will be saved, for you are the one I praise." Jeremiah 17:14

In the early days of my injury my father would come to the hospital every day and whisper to me with wet eyes, "In every day and in every way, you're getting better and better and better."

He'd say it every time he came. (Donna's note....if you don't know... Joni as a teenager jumped in a lake and broke her neck.)

But my body never did shake off the paralysis. The pragmatist would say, "See , your father's words were wishful thinking. You didn't get better, Joni; instead you got stuck with a wheelchair."

That's not the way I choose to look at it. Daddy was right. Every day I did get better. Maybe not on the outside but on the inside. My soul became settled. My hope became clear. This is the sort of healing described here: "Heal me, O Lord, and I will be healed; save me and I will be saved, for you are the one I praise." God is interested in healing the inside of a person. For me, a healed and happy heart is the best "better". By a long shot!

Path to Prayer: Pray that the Great Physician will bring healing to you, whether in mind, body or spirit or all of these. Praise him for his goodness and kindness to you and for keeping you in his presence. Thank him very specifically for the blesings he has brought into your life!!

Oh my....specifically.....let me count the ways.....God's love, peace and mercy for each of us, family and friends like you, and ONLY GOD COULD PLAN THIS DEVOTIONAL FOR ME TODAY!!

I'm thankful I"m keeping the pneumonia away...just a very low grade temp at evening. I'm drinking tons of water and taking lots of vitamins and blowing in my breathing machine to inflate my lungs. Dr. Baker would be proud of me!! He came in the second day and say, "Vacation's over it's out of the bed, walking and blowing in my machine!!

My main prayer request now is that when the final pathology report is back (maybe tomorrow) there will not be any other cancer in the breast tissue that wasn't expected!

Gotta close for know and rest for the night!

God loves you and so do WE!!

Thank You for Your Prayers!!

2006-06-19T16:17:00.000-07:00

Mom was released from the hospital this afternoon! We are back in Estes and she is resting. There really has been a great improvement in the past 24 hours!

We have shifted gears from spending all of our time at the hospital to now taking care of Mom and the daily needs of the resort, so our updates will be limited, until Mom is feeling better and ready to share.

Please continue your prayers, as pneumonia is still a possibility, but the doctor felt like she would rest much better here, than at the hospital. It was so good to see her bright smile today when we picked her up!

Praise be to God!
Lloyd, Teresa, Michele & Linda

Sunday Afternoon Update

2006-06-18T12:36:00.000-07:00

Mom rested well through the night and she has been fever free since last night! This was an answer to prayer! She will be staying again tonight and the plastic surgeon said he would have to see a big improvement in her breathing capacity with the little "machine" before he will let her go home tomorrow.

He said she will have to be aggressive today to get the lungs cleared up and keep pneumonia away. That is his main concern. She has to stay in a chair all day or walking the halls. She is pretty exhausted and currently taking a short nap, then we will keep pushing her more this afternoon.

Aunt Linda will be staying again tonight, Dad and I will be going to the resort tomorrow to relieve Derek who has been there since Thursday. Michele has also been taking care of the details at the resort yesterday and today and will return back to work tomorrow.

Please pray for Mom's strength, breathing capacity and lungs to all improve over the next 24 hours.

Thank you for your coninued prayers, support and words of encouragement.

God's blessings to each of you,
Teresa

This Evening's Update

2006-06-17T19:48:00.000-07:00

Mom enjoyed eating her first real meal in a couple of days! She has walked 3 different times and seemed to have a short, but restful nap. Our concern right now is that she has developed a temperature of 101.3 and when the nurse listened to her lungs, Aunt Linda asked if they were clear and he said no----there is some "crud" in the lungs.

Please pray for the lungs to clear and her temperature to go down. Her breathing treatments and walking will improve this situation, so she is pushing hard to do her part.

Overall she is doing much better than when we arrived at the hospital this morning. We will update you in the morning.

Keep on praying!
Lloyd, Teresa, Michele & Linda

Praise God for Answered Prayers!

2006-06-17T14:11:00.000-07:00

Aunt Linda and I arrived at the hospital at 10:30 this morning, Mom was still in great pain and very nauseated. They changed her nausea medicine and was going to try a different pain medicine after her nausea eased. The plastic surgeon arrive around 12:30 and discovered that her localized pain pump was not turned on, thus the cause of all her extreme pain.

Praise God that in about 20 minutes there was an amazing difference in how Mom was feeling! Her pain and nausea improved, she was ready to try and eat something and at 2:00 was willing to get up and walk! They were also able to remove her oxygen, she is resting now and her oxygen levels are staying up.

Thank you for your continued prayers, we definately know that God is listening and providing for all of our needs.

Trusting Him,
Teresa

Update This Morning for Mom

2006-06-17T08:11:00.000-07:00

Dad spent the night last night at the hospital, we spoke with the nurse at midnight and they had to add another pain medicine. We called Dad this morning and he said she had a rough night, the pain level is still high and she is fighting nausea.

Dad will return to Michele's today to get some much needed rest. Michele is heading up to the resort for the day to be with Derek and I believe our cousin Gretchen has taken the day off from her job at the YMCA in Estes Park to help at the resort too.

Aunt Linda and I will return to the hospital for the day and Aunt Linda will spend the night tonight. Plans are that Mom will be released sometime tomorrow.

We anticipated the pain to be tough but it is so hard to see a loved one in such pain. Please continue to lift her up in your prayers today. We will try and update later tonight.

Love,
Teresa

Praise God From Whom All Blessings Flow!!

2006-06-16T16:23:00.000-07:00

We feel so blessed because Mom's surgery went extemely well! The lymph nodes appear to be clear from cancer, the prelimnary test is 90% accuarate, but pathaology reports will confirm in the next few days.

Mom's surgery lasted 5 hours and the recovery was about 2 1/2 hours before they moved her to her room. It was a long day for all of us!

When we left the hospital at 4:00 pm Mom was having trouble staying awake and breathing deeply enough to receive more pain medicine.

Our specific prayer requests for this evening are that she continue to breath deeply to work the anesthesia out of her system, so that she can receive more pain medicine. Pray that God will keep her free from pneumonia, blood clots and nausea as she is recovering.

If Mom could write, she would be praising God for the results of her surgery and thanking each of you for your prayers. We are all truly blessed!

Thank you for being our prayer warriors!
Lloyd, Teresa, Michele and Linda

It's My "Red Letter Day"--I'm Off To The Repair Shop

2006-06-16T02:46:00.000-07:00

June 16, 2006

Dear Loved Ones,

We are leaving for the hospital in a few minutes, but I had to share with you the “hug from God” in my devotional this morning June 16, 2006 …..Only God's timing!!

In God’s Arms
“As a mother comforts her child, so will I comfort you; and you will be comforted over Jerusalem.” Isaiah 66:13

Ah, a child’s life, wrapped in a warm blanket, sleeping peacefully in his mother’s arms. Worries aren’t his responsibility. A baby seems to know that mother will always be close by, tending to every need.

Do you ever wish your life were like that? If so, God has a reminder for you: “I will extend peace to her like a river…you will nurse and be carried on her arm and dandled on her knees. As a mother comforts her child, so will I comfort you; and you will be comforted over Jerusalem.”

That seems an odd description for our heavenly Father, but God paints this tender picture to remind you that his breast is a place of comfort. In him, you can be satisfied. You, too; can rest peacefully knowing that Someone will always, be close to you, tending to your very need.

The Lord is your father, friend, husband, and brother. And according to Isaiah 66, He is also your mother. He is everything to you, just as a parent is to a child. And in his arms, you will find rest!!

PATH TO PRAYER: O God, you are father and mother to me; hold me close in your gentle arms. Comfort me as I long to be comforted. In you I will put all my trust in you; knowing that you will care for me as a parent does a child. I love you; help me to love and serve you more each day. Amen Joni Eareckson Tada

I know you all are praying for me and my precious family. Thank you for lifting up Dr. Young and Dr. Baker for wisdom, focus and skilled hands… and for the nurses that will be caring for me.

Our daughters will be posting an update as soon as they get a chance. It may be tonight before you hear if they can't get there wireless computer to work at the hosptial!

Trusting our Faithful God,
Donna
“Be Still and know that I am God”---Psalm 46:10

I'm Soaring Tonight with Holy Spirit Power!!

2006-06-15T17:53:00.000-07:00

Hi Family & Friends,
We are now 'down the mountain' and spending the night with Michele. Teresa and Michele have just left to pick up my twin sister Linda at the Denver airport! More Blessings.....she was able to get on an even earlier flight than we had hoped for!! God is so good!! Thanks for your prayers for her!!

Tuesday when I read the Prayer Pal....I knew I wanted to share it with you tonight because it speaks from my heart the prayer I have. This verse in Isaiah is a "family" verse and means a lot to our family. When Michele was in High School track she broke her sister Teresa High School record. She qualified to go the the State track meet near Chicago. Lloyd and I were in Fl. speaking at a big convention with a broken heart that we couldn't be there with her. My parents and my twin sister went with her. Aunt Linda (my sister) gave her this scripture to put in her track shoe!
SHE PLACED 3RD IN THE WHOLE STATE OF IL!!

Wonder if they would let me wear one shoe in the morning to surgery so I can carry this verse with me?? Well you never know till you ask!! Guess I'd better memorize it just in case!!:}:}

I love what Beth says below about using the turbulance in my life..it's my heart's desire!!

Please hold my precious family in your prayers....I know we are all feeling those prayers tonight and in the days ahead!!

Enjoy this wonderful hug from God below in Beth's letter!!

Subject: Prayer Pal
Isaiah 40:31
Those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

Everlasting God~
You are the Creator of everything. Because You have unlimited power, You never grow tired or weary. You are always available to re-energize me and refresh my strength during the seemingly hopeless storms of life. Like an eagle, in the midst of the storm, I’ll spread my wings of faith to embrace the wind. Placing my dependency on You and You alone, I’ll experience quiet wonders:
Your bliss will balance my burdens
Your power will pick up my problems
Your peace will pacify my pain
Your tenderness will touch my troubled heart
Soaring will become an adventure of discovering just how faithful You are. It will be an exhilarating experience to fly above the worrisome world! Free to fly, I’ll trust You to carry me through chaos and confusion.
Please use the turbulence in my life:
To take me higher in my relationship with You
To fall deeper in love with You
To grow stronger my faith in You
To walk more vigorously with You
To bear more fruit for You
Use the wicked winds of doubt to grow my wings of faith. Just as strong gales make it possible for the eagles to soar, so sin, suffering and sorrow make it possible for me to rise above troublesome storms. Please dear Lord, just give me more confidence to wait through the mourning with renewed strength, and not grow weary. As I fly, I will focus on my final destination, Paradise, where I’ll live happily ever after because of Jesus. Amen.
What storm are you facing? Are you soaring through it with Holy Spirit power?
_________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________Feel free to forward the Prayer Pal to your friends as the Spirit leads you. The Prayer Pal can be found on the web at www.dailyprayerpal.blogspot.com. To be added to the email distribution send an email to prayerpal@comcast.net with Subscribe on the subject line. If you wish to be removed from the distribution please reply via email with Unsubscribe on the subject line. My prayer is that you will fall in love with Jesus as you read, reflect on, and respond to God's Word. May the prayers of my heart richly bless you and give you a hunger and thirst for more of Jesus. Love, The Prayer Pal

© 2005-2006 by Beth Rudy. All rights reserved.

Good Night and God Bless
Donna & Family

2 More Nights in the "Rest Area" of This Trip!!

2006-06-14T20:08:00.000-07:00

Good evening everyone,

As crazy as it must sound, I'm excited for Friday to come!! Our daughter Teresa landed in Denver at 8 p.m mountain time tonight! Thank You Lord!! Now we pray that my twin sister Linda will arrive tomorrow night on time also.

My day has been so busy there hasn't been time to worry....but as I typed that sentence it wasn't "the busy" that kept me from worry....it's a "God Event". As the days have been flying by, there were times when I thought...surely I can't have this peace clear up until the day of surgery....but now I'm reminded that our God can do anything in the lives of his children!! I'm claiming this peace even as they wheel me into the operating room Fri. morning!!

Thank you for the prayers for my health...no temp and no cold! Thank You Lord!!

I've had lots of calls today, cards in the mail, e.mails and people stopping by with hugs and prayers. I'm blessed beyond measure!

Gonna stop and head to bed and sleep on my tummy 2 more nights....but who's counting! Tee Hee! If you want to add an extra prayer, I might really need that to learn to not sleep on my tummy. I remember after the delivery of our two girls when I was brought to my room....over I went and slept 'like a baby'!! Oh well...I'm sure I won't want to EVEN THINK about sleeping on my tummy Fri. night....or lots of nights to come!!

Praying God is blessing your lives as you extend your love and concern to our family!
Watch for those very day blessings He's sending your way!!

Receiving Love From Above,
Donna
Deuteronomy 31:8 The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged." (WHAT AN AWESOME PROMISE WE ALL HAVE....THANK YOU DEAR LORD!!)

Why I Chose the Path I'm Taking!

2006-06-12T19:05:00.000-07:00

Dear Ones,

First let me thank you for the prayers of continued health! Feeling great tonight...no temp or cold! Thank You Lord!!!

Second....PLEASE PRAY THAT MY SISTER LINDA WILL GET ON THE FLIGHT THUR. NIGHT FROM LOUISVILLE TO DENVER. SHE IS ON STAND-BY!!

A call yesterday from my sister in law, Marge and a niece, Bev made me think about sharing their questions they had with you. I had never thought about how strange it might sound to you to know that my cancer is "stage 0"and yet I'm having such radical surgery by doing a double mastectomy!! Because I've been in the middle of all this and have learned why....I want to share it with you so you won't think I'm totally crazy!! :) No comments on that please!! Tee Hee!!

While I'm thinking about it.....girls get your mammograms yearly if you are over 40!! I've had several e.mails from gals who are reading my blog, that have already e.mailed me back... that it was a reminder for them!! We found this in my annual mammogram April 19 th. There was no mass or tumor.....just microcalcification. They called me back a few days later and wanted an other magnifing view.. which we did on April 25. Said I had 3 places in the right breast that should be checked out. They told me it was 90% chance it was not cancer....in 1993 I had a biopsy and it was not cancer...so I'm just sailing along thinking this won't be either. After all... there isn't any cancer in my family that I know of for sure!

When we got to Co. I saw a surgeon who said lets biopsy 2 of the spots...if 2 are cancer then the 3rd one would probably be also...and 2 in one day was all she recommended...RIGHT SHE WAS!! Well it came back cancer...both of them. Our daughter Michele's friend Barry who is an oncologist was so great to personally take a look at my film. I think he was suprised to see how much calcification was in both breasts.

Most calcifications can be removed by a lumpectomy...however a couple of reasons made us decide on a mastectomy! The pathology report came back and said I was 'High Grade"(Grade III) ....not what is best in this case...plus my cancer is spread in wide locations apart. Women with grade 3 are at a higher risk of invasive cancer and also higher risk of coming back within the first 5 years. We might remove the three areas of concern and miss a bunch of others that weren't biopsy....so goodbye 'boobs' and hello a new improved modle!!!

So....dear ones...that's the reason....hope it makes more sense. Hope it wasn't more than you wanted to know. When I went in for my pre-op tests at the hospital last week, the lady taking my health history said ,"That must have been a really hard decision to make?" I said, "No, it was very easy to make." "Not difficult at all!!" The good Lord willing, I hope to live another 30 or 40 years and I don't want to worry every morning what is growing inside of them!! I had God's peace immediately when the words came out of my mouth....mastectomy...let's do it!!

Thankfully my 'big day' is coming closer....a month of waiting has been really long...yet I'm so blessed to have such peace. How may times can I tell you 'Thank You' for the prayes that you are speaking to the Lord about me and my family. Teresa mentioned today that she also has peace about coming for 10 days. She said her work is covered by others in the office, the boys have care while Tabb is working and I'm sure Tabb has been wonderful support for her! A true blessing for us all!

Well gotta close and get some rest!!

Good Night Dear Ones,
Donna
Cornithians 1: 20-22..."For no matter how many promises God has made, they are "yes" in Christ. And so through him the "Amen" is spoken by us to the glory of God. Now it is God who makes both us and you stand firm in Christ. He anointed us, set his seal of ownership on us, and his Spirit in our hearts as a deposit, guarnteering what is to come!! (Thank You Lord)!!!

P.S. I'm scared to death to hit spell check...last week I wrote something 3 times because it disappeared twice....so please forgive if there are mistakes....some how spelling doesn't come 'high on my list' tonight or really any time these last few weeks! Hugs, Donna

A Sweet Visit In the Lord's House Today

2006-06-11T19:42:00.000-07:00

Dear Loved Ones,

Just a short note tonight to tell you that God's blessings are on me today....my throat isn't sore and not temp!! He is awesome!!

I went to church this morning at the YMCA. It was a great "'booster shot" of JOY!! The music was great.

The sermon was "No Fear, No Dread....and the 11th Commandment". I'm sit there thinking...I'm so thankful that doesn't feel like me! By the way....the "11th Commandment" Don't sweat the small stuff!

Thank you in advance for your continued prayers....that the cold stays away.

Hugs,
Donna
Jermiah 33:3 "Call unto Me, and I will answer you, and I will tell you great and mighty things, which you do not know!!

Prayerfully only a small speed bum on the trip yesterday.

2006-06-10T06:33:00.000-07:00

Good Morning My Special Loved One,

On the trip down to St. Luke's yesterday for all the pre-op tests I learned I have a low grade temp.
Last night before bed my throat was a little scratchy! I can usually stop a cold in it's track by taking echinacea, Vit. C and garlic several times a day! Only problem now that I'm in the one week window of surgery...no more than 1000mg of Vit. C daily!! Oh my....I usually take 1500 mg. 3 or 4 times a day!! I'm taking the Echinacea and Garlic....so I'm praying it will still work.

I also know our Lord doesn't need anything to stop it!! SO I ASK THAT YOU, MY PRAYER WARRIORS, WILL HELP ME TO SEEK HIS WILL AND I WON'T MISS THE SURGERY DATE NEXT FRIDAY.

Thank you dear Lord there isn't a temp. this morning! I never know when it's just my allergies or a cold kicking in!!

I pray you have a really blessed week-end and watch for times you can be God's "hands and feet" with the people He puts in your life today!!

"If you spend yourselves in behalf of the hungry and satisfy the needs of the oppressed, then your light will rise in the darkness, and your night will become like the noonday." Isaiah 58:10

Receiving Love From Above and You,
Donna

HOW CAN I NOT HAVE PEACE???

2006-06-08T21:23:00.000-07:00

Greetings Dear Ones,

Today I replied to a sweet note from friend, Deanna Campbell and thought to myself I need to share this with you. I said to her in the note….Deanna….it’s so strange…..I know (well maybe I don’t know) that what lies ahead for me in 8 days, is probably an awesome task to recover….there must be huge pain ahead…but God is giving me such peace and I know with His help and the wonderful help of my family I will be fine!! Again….as I reread that I thought….IT ISN’T STRANGE AT ALL!!

All the prayers that are being given for me and my family are holding me together!!
My new favorite words are….”How Blessed Can I Be!!! Each morning as I study His word I see again His promises. Each day the devotional in the “365 Day of Hope” must be written for me. Cards and e.mail EACH and every day are such encouragement.

God has put awesome people here at the resort these past few weeks. Starting with Beth Rudy, author of the “Prayer Pal”. If your are looking for a gift (free) for someone you know who has struggles in their life for what ever reason… send them Beth’s address:. prayerpal@comcast.net. In the subject line write subscribe. Each morning, Mon-Fri….its like a hug from God when I see in the subject line: “Prayer Pal”. Sign up your self and see what I mean. Beth’s message and prayer echo’s my heart cry to God each day! Last week there was a sweet gal, Lou Gorski, who was such an encouragement and it can only be a “God Thing” that a family has 5 cabins booked for a 50th anniversary this week and the gal who booked it is Cathy Mallow. Cathy is a surgical nurse who has answered my many questions!! Now how else can that happen….Only God!! Plus many more “angels” He sent to stay…to many to name...but what sweet blessings!!

My peace is completed by the friends and family of our daughters. A couple of week ago Teresa already had friends who will look after Dustin and Luke while Tabb is working and she stays 10 days with us. I’m praying God will supply Tabb and the boy’s needs while she is here. Michele’s sister-by-love, Kim Westmoreland, is taking care of Haley and Kallie so she can be with us. And of course, Derek is “holding down the fort” here at the resort while I'm in the hospital. Gretchen Claypool, our great niece, is working a summer internship at the YMCA just a mile up the road and she arranged her days off so she can help Derek over the week-end. Then another “God Thing”….Linda, my twin sister, is on a bus tour next week with a group from their church to Louisville, Ky. They will be staying just 3 miles from the airport there! She has a friend who is retired from the airlines helping her with a ticket. She arrives in Denver Thur. night at 9:45! I know this is a sacrifice for her and Wayne…but such a sweet blessing for me to have her with me!!

HOW CAN I NOT HAVE PEACE?? I see God’s hand every where I turn. Tomorrow I “head down the mountain” to Denver for pre-op tests and another appointment with Dr. Baker, the plastic surgeon.

My dear readers, please know that you are in my prayers also! I know everyone has something in their life, at any given time, that is a concern or worry…and also joy and praise. I pray you will see God working in your life. May you know and feel the comfort and peace that only He can give!! Be sure to watch for those “every day blessings” God’s sending your way!!

Loving Him and you,
Donna

Philippians 4:19 And my God will meet all your needs according to His glorious riches in Christ Jesus!!

P. S. If you are new to blogs, as I was….be sure to go to the Archives first, and find the entry May 18th. That’s the start of my journey….and it will help you see how God’s hand is on me and directing each and every day from the very start of this journey!!

I'm in the "Rest Area" Until June 16th!!

2006-06-06T07:20:00.000-07:00

Good Morning my dear family and friends,

I'm shocked to see how many days have passed since I posted a note!! Everyday I've thought I must stop and share all the enormous acts of kindness that you have sent my way. The cards, e.mails with words of encouragement and prayers, phone calls and new Christian guests at the resort that God has sent me these last few days.....it is incredible!!

My heart & spirit are indeed in a "rest area" being nourished by all these events. I'm so blessed though to be so busy at the resort I don't have time to think or worry. The times I do worry, are about "how will everything get done at the resort"!! My dear son-in-law said with a grin....it might shock you to know it will be here when you get back!! I know you are right Derek!

I'm so blessed to have Teresa flying in from Tx. on the 14th and Michele lives "down the mountain" and they will be here to help. Some of you may know I have a twin sister, Linda Ewbank. We both longed to be together on this journey....another blessing....she will be here too!!

Let me share a small "detour of decision making" that I've been praying and searching answers for. Our dear daughter Teresa and others have posed a question to me a few days ago. I know Teresa didn't want me to go through with this surgery... if I could know that GOD HAD HEALED ME!! WELL LET ME TELL YOU THIS....I HAVE PERSONALLY KNOW ABOUT GOD'S MIRACLES HAVING BEEN TOUCHED BY HIS HEALING HAND IN 1977 FROM A MAJOR ILLNESS! I won't go into that...but if you would like to know more about that just hit 'comments' and ask me about it. I would LOVE TO SHARE it with you! I know with all the hundreds of people praying for me that indeed it is possible that when they do surgery there will BE NO CANCER!!

We talked with our friend Barry (oncologist) yesterday and he took the final road detour from my mind. ( I truly wasn't looking forward to another biopsy to find out if it was gone!) He explained that will all the calcification I have through out the breast that these spots could be healed and yet the way my body seems to make this calcification in a year or two there could be others that turn to cancer. Sooooo....IF THERE ISN'T ANY CANCER ....THEN THAT'S GOD'S AWESOME GIFT TO ME SHOWING ME AGAIN THAT HE'S IN CONTROL AND KNOWS THE ROAD HE HAS PLANNED FOR ME!! AND IF THEY FIND LOTS OF IT...I'M BLESSED THEY FOUND IT EARLY!! Thank you dear Lord.... I have peace about this now!
BUT...please continue the prayers for my family, and for healing and a quick recovery for me.

My hearts desire is that God can use my journey and blog to help others who are on similar journeys. I pray for all of you who are reading this that are facing very difficult events...for various reasons. I pray you will seek God and his peace and comfort. You are never alone...there is one who is crazy in love with you more than anyone could possibly understand.....Christ the Lord. You are one of His children and He loves YOU!! Reach out to Him and let him hold you in your time of fear and decisions.

Well the day holds much and I must close. I value your love and prayers more than I can tell you!

Have a Son-shiney day, (thanks Beth for those words!)
Donna

Isaiah 26:3 You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you!

Whether you turn to the right or the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, "This is the way; walk in it." Isaiah 30:21

2006-05-30T05:06:00.001-07:00

My special family and friends,

I'm always in awe....and yet I shouldn't be....how God puts people, thoughts, events and words in my life on this journey.

This morning in my devotional in a book called: "365 Days of Hope" I read this written by Joni Eareckson Tada.

The Way

Isaiah 30:18-21

I've always enjoyed maps. I feel good when I have a decent idea of where I'm going and how to get there. A map allows me to mark off progress, to help me see how much farther I have to go.

That's why I enjoy my walk with Jesus. His Word is just like a map. Pick a verse, any verse, and you're on your way. God orders your steps. He points to the narrow road rather than the broad one. He says, "I am the way," and you certainly can't get lost when you tailgate the Lord. And if you're a little unsure of your directions, Isaiah 30:21 read just lkie a road sign.

Look at the road ahead today as though it were a journey full of adventure. Remember that heaven is your destination. Just keep your eye on the Way. That's all the direction you need....by Joni Eareckson Tada.

I wanted to share this for 2 reasons. First because it touches my heart and renews my thought this morning that God is in control....all I need to do is tailgate....actually I'd rather think of walking beside Him and His arm around my shoulders. :}

The 2nd reason is to tell you about the "Out Reach Of Hope" that I have posted on my blog on the right of the screen under "Links". "Out Reach of Hope' is a ministry formed by Dave and Jan Dravecky. Lloyd and I met Dave at a convention in Grand Rapids, Mi. As some of you might know Dave was a pitcher for the "Giants" (I think...not into sports much). Dave lost his pitching arm to cancer a few days after we meet him.

He and Jan started this ministry for people with cancer or major illnesses. Have you ever wondered how to help a friend or family member who has just learned of cancer in their life?? Check out their website. Send in the persons name....either on line or call. They will send them a ton of material for free!!! Included is the "Encouragement Bible". This is the NIV bible and on each page in the right and left margin is a few words about the scripture and encouragement from either, Dave, Jan or Joni Eareckson Tada. I ordered one for myself 2 years and really love it. The "365 Days of Hope" devotional I just wrote from above I bought on the website!! It is awesome and each day holds words that encourage folks with cancer, major illnesses or broken hearts.

The material they send to the person whose name you give them is free. However if you can, a donation is greatly appreciated. Dave and Jan do not draw any funds from this ministry. One day I ask how much the materials cost that they send each person and the secretary said over $45. We have heard from lots of friends and family who we have sent their name in and their comments are so wonderful. A cousin said,"I'll treasure this bible forever!"

Well the day holds much and I must go. I wish I could find another word beside "Thanks" for not only your prayers...but for putting my name on your church prayer chain. Blessed again and again!!!

Trusting Our Faithful God,

Donna

Repair Shop for the journey is open June 16- 7:30 a.m.

2006-05-26T18:45:00.002-07:00

Hello Everyone,

We just received word today that the repair Drs. have me scheduled Friday June 16 at 7:30 a.m.
We are to be there at 5:30 a.m.....Yikes......I didn't know there was such an hour!!! They said it will take about 4 1/2 hrs for the new tune up!! The news is that I will stay 2 - 3 days for some tender care from the nurses before hitting the road for home!!

I'm sure we will spend the night of the 15 th at Michele & Derek's to make the trip a little shorter Fri. morning. The plans are that Teresa will be flying in from Tx. on Wed. evening the 14 th. The 15 th will be a crash course for her to learn to run the resort with her Dad's help! Sure glad she is a fast learner!! :}:} Then Michele will take command the following week!! Michele already know most of the ropes!! Now how blessed can I be..... again??? God is certainly supplying my every need!!

I'm not sure how much more there will be tell you until the major overhaul!! In the mean time I'll be pressed close to Jesus side! I'm reminded of the song we sang as little kids.....when we are weak He is strong!! I truly feel that now!!

Bea Behnke, a special friend sent me a quote out of one of Robert Schuller's books... You never promised, Lord, that I would be forever sheltered from stormy times in my life. You have promised that the sun would out last the stroms!! I DO SEE THE BRIGHT SUNSHINE ON THE ROAD AHEAD!!

Make each day count,
Donna
P.S. I can feel your prayers! Thanks sooooo much!

A few wrong turns on the road today!!

2006-05-25T20:34:00.000-07:00

Hi Family and Special Friends,

Oh my goodness....Denver is easy to get lost in!! Next time we go...I'm even going to print a set of directions to get back home from the St. Luke's Hospital!!

Other than those little side trips.....I have great news!!! God put 2 great surgeons in my life today. Lloyd and I are both very pleased with meeting them both and what we learned!!
Dr. Young the surgeon and Dr. Baker the plastic surgeon were both great!! I now truly understand the question I was wrestling with of "Why Now God"....because He had special help and surgeons here for me!! Blesssed again!!!

I'll have to share a chuckle with you....Dr. Baker the plastic surgeon "check me out" and then said they needed to take come pictures....we went to another room and there were big lamps with white umbrella around them and a camera. I guess I was kind of nervous so I said ..."Oh is this were you make the secret movies?" He shot 6 or 8 pictures while I was turning all different directions and I asked him if I could have copies. He said, "Do you really want them?" I said "Well yes...I would start a creative memory book....I told him I was even thinking about have a going away party for "them"...after all I had become pretty attached to them the past 64 years"!! I couldn't believe I said that...but he and the nurse got a good laugh....guess that was the before and then we get pictures of the "new improved models later!! Oh my what an adventure!!

We were really hoping to know the date for surgery before we left....but all the office girls had left (5:30p.m.). They will call us tomorrow with the date. Dr. Young is out of the office the week of June 5 :{...so we are trying for June 12. I'll keep you posted.

We truly can't begin to thank you all for the sweet notes and cards you are sending....we are just blown away!! We value your friendship,love, prayers and concern!!

Make each day count,
Donna

....I have good plans for you....I will give you hope....Jeremiah 29:11

The Road Signs Say--"Straight Ahead"

2006-05-23T20:02:00.000-07:00

I hadn't planned to write until after I saw the Drs Thur.....but I feel the need to share what developed since I wrote. More blessings!!

First let me say....the comment about 9 churches was far from correct---only God knows the number. So many e.mails today just touched my heart that you were lifting me up to the Lord and sharing my name with your church prayer chains! Thank you... Thank you...Thank you!!
Also a special e.mail from our great nephew, Justin Claypool praying for us while serving in Iraq!! Isn't modern technology great!!

1st sign post: Barry checked out my surgeon Dr. Young. He didn't know Dr. Young....but he did knows another Dr. in that same group! And was impressed how his patient was handled from that group. Barry is an oncologist in Longmont. I'm guessing his patient had surgery in Denver and probably lived in Longmont and saw Barry for his chemo or radiation! Thanks Barry!

2nd sign post: Exciting news! Ed Otto is a special friend in K. C. Ed is hired by hospitals and practices to actually check out Drs. who are applying for a position. Ed sent me a report and it's a go for both surgeons! Thanks Ed!!

That was your prayers from yesterday that God answered...I see His hand every where I turn with more blessings!!

Doesn't that sound like "straight ahead" to you?

Psalm: 90:12 says, "Teach us to number our days that we may get a heart of wisdom." When we think of numbering our days, we can't help but know there will some day be an end.
So make each day count!!!

Beth Rudy gave me permission to use these words that she wrote on my card:

A Hug from Him,
Donna

Next Stop on the Journey

2006-05-22T14:46:00.000-07:00

Another blessing today.

I called the plastic surgeon this morning and I have an appointment Thur. May 25th at 1:00 with Dr. Baker who Dr. Mindy Haws suggested Sat. when I talked with her. Dr. Baker is in Denver!!
Dr. Baker has a recommended surgeon, Dr. Young that he works with. So I cancelled the appointment I did have with a surgeon at the U.of Co. tomorrow.

Now what's the chance I can see Dr. Young the same day as Dr. Baker so we don't have to make two trips down the mountain to Denver......slim....first opening they had was Monday May 30th.
After much discussion.....another prayer answered....I can see him the same day...Thur. at 4 p.m.....
Who can explain the blessings!!

Now the prayer request will be for them to have schedules open for my surgery in the next couple of weeks!!

I'll be back on line Thur. night late or Fri. after seeing them both.
Thanking you for all your prayers.
Loving Him and each of you,
Donna

I close today with this praise! Ephesians 3:20...Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us!!

His Wonderful Peace

2006-05-21T20:05:00.000-07:00

What can I say....blessed beyond measure.

My dear "new" friends Beth Rudy wrote in a note she gave me yesterday..."As I sit by this beautiful rushing river this morning seeking God this is what the Lord said to me..."Tell Donna I will extol peace to her like a river." Isa. 66:12. Praise the Lord...IT'S MINE!

This morning at the YMCA Church of the Rockies, from where I sit the cross in the front of the church was shining in front of a huge window with the snow capped mountains behind it. I truly felt God saying...I'm here...I'm with you and I give you my peace!!

I thank each and everyone of you who is lifting me and my precious family up to the Lord! I know that there were 9 churches doing that THIS VERY MORNING.... that I know of for sure:
Clarksville Baptist, Marshall Christian, Martinsville Baptist, my sister Linda's church, my sister Jeanette's church, our church Canyon Creek Baptis church, Sun City church in Tx., the YMCA of the Rockies and the Methodist church here of Estes Park....I'm sure there are other I'm missing.

I wonder if I could find a better word to use other that "thank you" ....it just doesn't seem enough.

My prayer request for tomorrow: I will be calling Dr. Baker's office at 9 a.m. (Co. time) who is the plastic surgeon I want to do the reconstruction. Pray that he will have an opening soon and the details will be worked out!!

If you are sharing my blog with anyone else....please tell them to start at the bottom!! It must be really confusing if you start on today!!

Must close and get some rest....THANK YOU JESUS....NO HOT FLASHES! What peace and sleep!!

Loving Him and You,
Donna

I Need An Umbrella---God is pouring blessings on me!!

2006-05-20T09:03:00.000-07:00

I'm just speechless with how to explanin all the blessings that are happening EVERY DAY!!!

I special friend, Linda Stephens from our little town of Clarksville and a childhood freind replyed back when I sent her my e.mail this morning that I wrote Thur. night about my new journey.
I called her, and she is in California with her daughter Mindy who is a "famous plastic surgeon" from Nashville, Tn., where Mindy is hosting a medical conference. I has asked Linda if Mindy might know a good plastic surgeon here...YES SHE DOES!! One that even trained under Mindy. While I was on the phone with Linda....Mindy called Matt Baker (the surgeon she knows) in Denver and HE SAID...HAVE HER CALL MY OFFICE MONDAY AND I'LL TAKE CARE OF HER!!!

Do you see what I mean??? It's raining blessings!!

Our daughter Teresa just called and her husband Tabb answered the only question I have with God. I had been struggling with the "Why Question"!!! NOT WHY ME....but WHY NOW! Seven months of my life is really free...."Why NOW God" during the 5 most busy months of my year? I was so focused on the concern of taking care of the resort I couldn't see what Tabb knew...IT'S BECAUSE I NEEDED TO BE HERE WHERE GOD WOULD HAVE SUCH SPECIAL PEOPLE TO TAKE CARE OF ME!! Barry Bblyton has been such a help guilding me to the right Drs, Radiologist and Pathology team. Mindy know a REALLY great plastic surgeon in DENVER that says"I'll take care of her"....happy tears of joy is streaming down my face!!

It's 10:45 and the day holds much...I must get busy...the phone and guests are streaming in and out and I don't even have my make-up on...Shock..Shock....and even bigger shock...I don't really
care!!! Can't wait to see what's happening next!!

Thanks for your prayers and love....and God's mercy and grace!
Donna

Blessings Today

2006-05-19T20:20:00.000-07:00

Where do I begin....How true when it says, "His blessings are new each morning"!!
Let me share the blessing today with you!

1.So many wonderful e.mails and calls from you our friends and family with words of encouragement!!

2. A decision to not do the other biopsy on the left breast was made, and to go ahead with a second opinoin immediately. That was a blessing for my left breast...yeah!!

3.Barry, our new Dr. friend... and special friend of Michele and Dereks, took the time to view my mammogram films and pathology report. After seeing them he was inclinded to believe that a double mastemoty was the right step especially with all the calcification in the left breast. He guided me to search for a surgeon at the U. of Co. Hospital for the second opinion!!

4. A friend, Martiza gave me the name of her oncologist. When I called their office they gave me a name of a Surgeon at the University of Colorado Hospital Breast Center. We have an appointment Tues. May 23rd at 1:00!!! Wow so quick! Which as you can imigne...we need to get this done....busy season here at the resort starts the middle of June!!

5. The U. of Co. hospital is an approved PPO Provider of our insurance company!!

6. But probably the hugest blessing today for me is----NO HOT FLASHES! I have been on a natural hormone cream for several years. I knew if this was cancer I would have to stop using it. Normally if I forget to apply it around 10 p.m when I'm ready for bed...by 1 a.m. I'm having horrible night sweats! Last night I threw the cream in the trash and said aloud..."God help me" I can't do this with out you! It's almost 10:00 p.m. ....24 hours and NO HOT FLASHES! That is a praise beyond words!!

7. Beth Ruby had supper with us tonight and she made my Blog site. I have to admit I wasn't even sure what a Blog was or where to find it! I;ll send out the web location tomorrow to you all.
Please feel free to make comments and write back with any question or suggestions!! Beth is one of those great people God drops in our lives at the right moment!! She's the author of the "prayer pal"....check the link that I asked her to put on our site.

There may or may not have new information here each day....but I wanted to have a chronicle of this journey and Beth convinced me this was a great way!
Thanks always for your prayers!

Joyfully His,
Donna
P. S. the spell check isn't working and I have to admit I'm heading to bed...there's much more to life that spelling in my book tonight!! Please forgive!

A New Journey Ahead

2006-05-19T19:01:00.000-07:00

May 18, 2006

Good Evening My Special Friend,

I wanted to thank you for your prayers for me the last few days. Dr. Miller called me at 5:00 this evening. She is a surgeon that I saw on the 9 Th of May who ordered 2 biopsy of my right breast. The results are in and it is cancer! But let me share the real blessings from this:

God has a plan for this in my life. I had just read that nothing comes to us before it has passed His permissive will. I know He is with me and my family each step of the way. He is the Lord of my life and I’m blessed by His unfailing mercy and grace each and every day of my life!! Blessed I Am! Imagine this: Psalm 139:8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me; your right hand will hold me fast! BLESSED WE ALL ARE!!

In 1977 when He touched me with a miracle of healing I felt my mission in life was to minister to others who were ill and suffering….which I have tried to fulfill. I can’t wait to see what He has in store for me now…the 2nd chapter is about to open. I’ll certainly be able to relate more to others with cancer!! Blessed because I couldn’t really understand what they were dealing with! Now I will know just a little better.
Other good news is that it appears to be stage 0!!! Yes I said 0! Now how blessed can I be? It appears to be contained in the milk ducts.
Dr. Miller’s words…”this is something that we can take care of”! Blessed I am!!
Michele and Derek have a REALLY GREAT friend here. His name is Barry and he is an oncologist. God knew at Christmas time when he ate dinner with our family that I would need him. BLESSED AGAIN!!
Barry was there to help me find the best surgeon, radiologist who did the biopsy and especially important to me….. That when I asked him tonight….he called both our daughters to explain more to them about this. Blessed Again!!
5 minutes after I received the news one of our guests Beth Ruby, who some of you may know because she writes the “Prayer Pal”, is staying here 4 nights while she attends a Christian Writers Conference up at the YMCA. After I made some calls to the family, I went down to see her and we sit AND prayed by the beautiful roaring river. Peace is mine! Blessed Again! Don’t you just love the way God puts people in our lives and knows the plan before we even have need of it? What an awesome God!!
And really blessed I am to have the love of my life by my side!! LLOYD!! :}
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THE PLAN
1. Hope this isn’t more than you want to know….guys just pass this to your wife if it is. I thought I was normal and all gals had calcifications in their breasts. Well I’m finding out most gals don’t know what I’m talking about! Gals you have probably seen your mammograms. Right? If you have calcifications they show up in mammograms like little shining diamonds! (Thought I was blessed….maybe not!) Tee Hee! Well they are fine unless a bunch of them sort of cluster together…big diamonds on the mammogram are not a goal!! Taking too much calcium does not cause it…they don’t know why some women have it or its cause.
2. Next week we will biopsy some calcification in the left breast and see if any of them have decided to need attention.
3. When the report is back we meet with the surgeon. Will have to do a mastectomy (gosh don’t’ even know how to spell it—Another Blessing!) on the right one and maybe left one…I asked Lloyd what he thought about a Dolly Parton size!!! I don’t think he found that too funny and after thinking about that I decided a back ache wasn’t worth it!!
4. Decide if we get a second opinion and where to go to get it.

Prayer Requests

PLEASE PRAY FOR PEACE FOR LLOYD, OUR PRECIOUS DAUGHTERS AND OTHER FAMILY MEMBERS.
For wisdom about a 2nd opinion and whether to do the double mastectomy if the other one doesn’t show cancer. If it isn’t cancer today….it possibly could be down the road and then I would have to go through it again….and my goodness… it seems like a good idea to get matching pair!! :}:}!
That I would find the best surgeon and reconstruction surgeon in this area.

Well that’s about it….because we love you and count you as special friends we wanted to share this with you. We value your prayers and would ask you to put us on your church prayer list. We will keep you posted.

I know I can trust our sovereign God who works all things for our good and His glory! Tonight Psalm 91:9-16 holds special meaning to me!! I have a peace that comes only from our Lord! Thanking you in advance for your prayers today and in the tomorrows ahead!!

Joyfully His,
Donna